I will have to probably repeat that mantra…my affirmation…FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!
It is my weak link…my access point for the enemy.
It’s not that I don’t know it…I DO!!!
It’s not that I don’t feel it…I DO!!!
It’s not that I don’t believe it…I DO….most of the time….
And there in-lies the problem…my weak point…my access point where the enemy whispers his disgusting lies!!!
I had a difficult hour last week when the whole day had been beautiful, wonderful….then….in a blink of an eye… all came crashing down on me. It was my amazing wise, 40-year-old-stuck-in-a-14-year-old-body, daughter that had me reflect on what was really going on internally.
We talked about hormones…periods…emotions. Her statements and questions were basically directed to the fact that: just because I don’t still have a period my body system still has hormones. She was right.
She sensed I needed ClaryCalm and Serenity. I laughed cause I don’t really like the smell of ClaryCalm. Its too floral for me. But if there is anything I have learned about the essential oils when we don’t really like a smell….especially if we have a negative reaction to it….it may mean our body REALLY needs it!
My daughter was soooooo right….
It stirred up emotions of continual healing from losing Sam. Sam should’ve been born 6 years ago around this time.
A year later I needed a hysterectomy. Therefore, present day I don’t experience the beautiful signals our beautiful female bodies will naturally share with us about our hormonal cycle. Before the hysterectomy I charted my bio-markers. This allowed me to see my estrogen build up and rise, then drop off. Actually for me I was able to see the dysfunction of being estrogen dominant.
Our bodies are beautifully made. They are continually talking to us. Our bodies share with us how to take care of them, how to be healthy and strong. Yet, I don’t have that ability anymore. Even though my hormones are still doing something inside. I don’t have the bio-markers to guide me anymore.
This is a reminder that I won’t carry any more children. How can I possibly be enough for my hubby…my daughter…for God…oh the lies our enemy tries to fill in our heads.
The monthly blend, ClaryCalm, is the oil of vulnerability. NO WONDER why I DON’T like the smell of it!!!
Who likes to feel vulnerable….IT MEANS WEAKNESS…..but that is a LIE!!!
What it really means is being open to true warmth and love in relationship.
My daughter had wisdom with this oil that she didn’t even know or understand. But her spirit knew….and her connection and bond to me was supporting me and sharing with me what I needed to know to support myself and to continue the healing process.
This blend helps release emotional tension from the ovaries; to release suffering and dread. We as women tend to have this surround our periods. but since I don’t receive a period I have this build up of hormonal emotions that I don’t have bio-signals for anymore.
This can cause me to want to be even more guarded and closed. Add to it loss, past traumas with men, and shame….but….that’s the beauty of continual healing…
God reminded me through my precious 14 year old that ClaryCalm is what I need to support myself. I need to continue to grow in vulnerability, grow in healing, grow in knowing I AM ENOUGH.
I WILL learn a new way to monitor my hormones and with patience I will find a balance. After all God has shown me so many other things through essential oils, tapping, plant based living, and so much more….I KNOW He will help me find a new way to find my hormonal rhythm…naturally…HIS WAY!!!
Do you struggle with feeling enough? Do you need to open yourself up to vulnerability? Hormonal balance?
Seek out God’s rhythm for you!
He will remind you just HOW ENOUGH YOU REALLY ARE!!!
Sit…pray…journal…oil up….tap…and most important seek God through all of it!
As we connect one drop at a time to WHOLE health….mind body soul spirit…
you have my hugs and blessings always…