Saturday’s Sorrow & Self Care

Do you sleep in on Saturday or Sunday?

I don’t typically sleep in…..and technically I didn’t this morning! BUT….I did fall back asleep while I was doing my morning prayers….lol!

Buuut…..I needed to give myself grace… body was ready for some rest.  I had a full week with my daughters schooling.  She is finishing up her 10th grade work this month and we will start entering into her junior year of schooling in July…..whew…..the time flies by.

Talk about needing a lot of peace!

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And then I read in the paper (which let me tell you I don’t keep up on current news very good….cause it just hurts my heart too much!)……but I read on the front page this morning about the shooting in a Mosque that was actually posted on Facebook and I felt the need for peace even greater.

We as parents stand and get up each day doing what we think is best to prepare our kiddos for the adult world.  We have to try to not transfer our fears to them.  Fears that may have been from our own past.  Fears of: are they are going to make it?

Soooo many fears.

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And I have to tell you I DON’T WALK IN FEAR.  I really am quite relaxed and laid back….heck my sweet hubby probably thinks I don’t worry enough, or that I am too cheery or gentle about other things.

BUT…..when world events slap me in the face I have to pause…..and I can either choose to think: I can’t send my daughter off into that….

OR….I can choose to lean on God’s promise of “fear no evil”!



If I don’t I will box her up in bubble wrap and send her off to some remote island…..and then NO ONE would be able to experience all her amazing gifts and talents.

It would also mean I was giving into the fear the enemy wants us to have…..and with fear brings anger, hate, ugliness, and so much more.

So I KNOW that my rest this morning was a way that my body was saying take in some peace…..Lent has just begun and there is much healing to still take place…..not just for you but for the world!

I hope today you will join me in a moment of prayer for those whose lives were taken in New Zealand…and all the loved ones who have to heal from the devastation left behind….

But I also DARE to ask you humbly…..please pray for the soul of the shooter…..his is obviously so distraught….that he chose to cross a line to enter fully into an evil act……one he can’t take back.  He turned his back on God in such a way that it has to have us wonder…..WHAT is HIS pain…..WHY!?

As always please set aside each day to sit…pray….journal….tap….and oil up!

Many blessings and hugs always,


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That is the resounding message I kept getting this last weekend when I attended the CATHOLIC WOMEN’S CONFERENCE.  The guest speaker was Sonja Corbitt (click on her name to follow the link all about her!).   OH MY GOODNESS…..I have to say I was a bit in awe….a bit star struck….and bit overwhelmed over how much of her message is what I live and breathe….just from a different perspective.  And I felt a kindred spirit…a soul sister felling toward her.

I promised on Facebook I would share my notes and highlights from the conference so here we go….let’s see if you can wade, muddle through my code of notes…lol….


FEARLESS…about woundedness…..we need to REALLY see the enemy….the true enemy: SATAN.  Have we ever thought about how that agitation we feel deep in our belly is the HOLY SPIRIT MOVING THE SOUL! 

This battle began in the GARDEN, Genesis 1.  God gave us a 2nd chance through redemption….GRACE!  But the ANGELS did not….their choice was irreversible.  When we die it will be the same as the angels…..

We need to guard ourselves in the sense of loving others but not revealing self to those who are not “safe” for us….for our soul….our health….our well-being.

God created us to be needy…original sin disconnected us….thus we are looking for comfort in everything else other than GOD.

Adam and Eve disconnected because of fear.

GOD is the source of EVERY NEED!  Therefore….the WORD OF GOD brings light to us….it is our NEED…

Let’s look at Adam and Eve….their sin created hiding, disconnect, fear……change comes with honesty.

When God saw what they had done he covered them with a sacrificed animal because their coverings were not good enough….But even God said this covering was temporary.  God HIMSELF was already promising us JESUS in the garden.

Because of sin we tend to view “neediness” as disgusting.  It’s actually not disgusting.  When we push our neediness away that is actually disgusting.

We are consumed by being self-sufficient but that is not from GOD.  NEEDINESS is how we are SUPPOSE to be for HIM!

CS Lewis….”…can fix a sum….by going back and reworking it….”

Edith Stein…”…Mary unraveled….so can we….”

Saint JPII….”…God has given self to woman in a unique way…”

*As women, we feel more, thus the reason why we get hurt so easily!  We are gifted especially to do this…to feel!

The problem comes when we let people in TOO far.  WE have to reconnect with God to KNOW and keep/set boundaries.  UNSAFE people we can still connect with in the spiritual world…..but have proper boundaries in our physical lives.

Our reconnecting reclaims our dignity. 

Need to identify something, someone….toxic relationships….see patterns ….

Hebrews 3:7, Psalms 95:10, Exodus 17: 1-7….when God repeats HIMSELF in scripture is emphasizing a point!

How often is 40 used in the bible…it is a time of gestation….trial….scarcity….deserted-ness…  In the desert we learn to rest in the scarcity….1 cor 10, Ex 16, Psalm 78….


Rest = Sabbath….not resting is because not waiting for HIM to provide…..desert is for excavation.

We will not enter the ultimate rest if we are not willing to rest.

Rest + Worship = Sabbath


Sunday: STOP WORKING….no dishes, no laundry, no work….

We are ENTITLED to it BY GOD!  We must guard that day……we cannot worship properly without rest!

I am going to pause there and give you the other half next week….but what I want you to think about is this: 

WHAT CAN YOU DO TODAY TO PREPARE…TO TRULY MAKE SUNDAY A DAY OF REST!?  Sit with this, pray about this, write about this…then purpose yourself to truly rest on Sunday!

Many blessings and hugs my dear readers….family…friends….

~Kelly 😉


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