Numb…anger…sorrow!

Raw and real moment!

I have been tapping more the last 3 days than I probably average in 30 days!

My father passed away on Tuesday morning….and the emotions I have experienced have been extreme and everywhere.

I was on my way to see him on Sunday but while traveling I received a call that he was in the heart hospital to have some tests done.

He has a history of heart stuff and multiple stints so no surprise other than knowing that if he was doing this on a Sunday he definitely wasn’t feeling well.

The first emotion I had was frustration. I had not seen my father in over a year and due to the protocols with hospitals right now I was not going to be allowed to go in and see him.

Monday they determined he needed another stint. They did the procedure and the thought was he would be able to come home that evening….buuut…..there was more bleeding than expected from the spot.

So second major emotion….anger that he had to be in a hospital alone….he is a social person…he thrives on others spending time with him! His top love languages were time and touch.

They decided to keep him another night. Now none of this stopped me from being creative to see him.

I had a care package delivered to his room and arranged with the floor nurse to open his window so we could sing to him and cheer him up. It was so much fun and I’m so grateful to have had that as his last moments with us.

Tuesday morning THE call came early…..my mom comes out to the kitchen as I was making my coffee…..she hands me the phone and says she doesn’t know what to do.

The nurse on the other end is explaining to me that they are giving him CPR but if they stop his heart will stop what does my mom want to do.

I tell her I will call her back as I talk to my mom….knowing that it won’t come to that cause sure enough the nurse calls back within in minutes and let’s me know that they had to call the time of death.

Next emotion…numb…I didn’t truly have time to truly feel anything cause my mom needed me. My time would have to wait. So I tapped some more.

Tuesday night as I got ready for bed….deep sorrow….gut wrenching sobs….but I only allowed some to come…..why?! Cause I knew if I lost it right then I didn’t know if I would return….

It was a choice to pause the sorrow….right or wrong….it was a choice I made…..

Wednesday was about processing…being with family….and trying super hard to stay present in the moment so I could truly feel all the emotions and not stuff them away….

I know it hasn’t truly fully hit me…..

But today we meet with the Funeral Home….we find out when we can actually have the funeral and then coordinate it with the church and due to again all the protocols that have been put into place due to this last year…..we are stuck with anger….

Anger that his last days were in-humane…..anger that his family and friends won’t get to have the closer they deserve….anger that he died alone without family!

So I tap…..and I find the gratitude of the having had 46 years with him….gratitude that he was the gentle soul he was….and gratitude that we did have some amazing memories.

So this next year will probably look different how I blog, post on social media, and even how I coach…..because I know if I’m willing to share with you in the moment what I’m experiencing maybe just maybe I will be able to help someone else who is going through something similar or who is still trying to process the emotions of losing a loved one.

I know my postings probably will be hit and miss for awhile and that too will be part of my willingness to continue to be raw and real with you’ll.

As you spend your last day of 2020….please reflect on all your blessings don’t take for granted one moment with family, friends, community.

But don’t also beat yourself up over “what if’s”…..or “should of”……

Instead move through the emotions……feel them….release yourself….and be present in the healing process.

Your mind body soul spirit will thank you for it!

Many blessings and hugs dear ones!
Kelly 💜

I Love Me!

I hear women (friends, family, clients…even strangers)……tell me all the time they don’t love themselves…

They don’t like this about themselves….etc.

BUT…..they will when they reach a certain physical goal….

REALLY?!

Cause let me tell you what 10 years ago I had what I thought was a dream come true: thigh gap!

And I was miserable!

What I didn’t know was I had obtained that thigh gap because of a thyroid and adrenal malfunction…..my body was literally burning itself up!

All I knew at the time was I had finally achieved a coveted goal….and I still didn’t love myself!

And when my body started to heal….I started to put muscle mass back on…..I started to look healthier and feel healthier…..yet I still didn’t love me!

How I started to truly love me…..no matter what I looked like….was connecting to my inner me….my soul…..and really working on my self talk….my mindset….

I started pulling out ALL the tools in my toolbox…..and went to work on my TRUE healing of SELF LOVE!

I can honestly say I LOVE ME!

This doesn’t mean I don’t have physical goals. This doesn’t mean I don’t have health goals.

What this means is I don’t judge me!
I don’t compare me!
I don’t bully me!

I only love me….and the skin that I’m in!

Are you ready to TRULY love you?!

Hugs and prayers always,

Kelly 😘

Rest, Restore, Reconnect

On Sundays I love sitting in the bliss of knowing that God himself took a day of rest!

I think He did this for multiple reasons…

But I think the biggest one was to set the example to us.

When we don’t stop to reconnect with Him and ourselves for one day a week how can we possible remember to do the same just a little bit each day!

Having the discipline of truly unplugging from work, hustle and bustle, the world…..for just one day a week is more important than you can imagine!

I challenge you this advent to start truly setting aside a whole day that has you connecting to God and therefore yourself…

I know you will find how to better love yourself thus growing and strengthening your relationship with God….and as your grow in your relationship with God you grow in your self love! Do you see the beautiful cycle of hope and healing?!

Have a glorious Sunday!

Hugs and prayers always,

Kelly 💜

STOP the Stress & Anxiety of today!

Today is going to be full of many emotions…

We have choices with those emotions.

Use your tools of prayer, tapping, aromatherapy, grounding, journaling, walks, anything that will bring you peace in your heart and soul!

Hugs and prayers always,

Kelly 😘

Save the Date

Good morning!

Can you believe it….Easter is tomorrow 🙌!

A quick reminder for all you lovely’s who live locally to me….save your seat…..there is going to be not only the regular drawing but a special something for EVERYONE to take home!!!

Sooo…even if you’re not local it’s a great place to come visit 😘😘😘…

I hope you will be able to join me for Mays wellness workshop all about the 4 systems that an AromaTouch technique is addressing and supporting!!!

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On a separate note…..I had some serious aha’s and thoughts these last few days during Holy Thursday mass and Good Friday services!

I look forward to sharing more with you soon!

Until then…you’ll have an amazingly blessed Easter tomorrow and remember to always….

Sit….pray….journal…tap….and oil up each day for the transformation you seek!!

Hugs and blessings always,

Kelly

Transformation Tuesday

I started out this year with purposing myself to hop on to Facebook EVERY TUESDAY to provide support and service with a facebook live.  I do this on my public page Kelly Frick: Connect as well as in two other groups:  my private clients and my team of leaders.

What started out as me wanting to be super intentional and consistent in showing up for something…..has turned into an amazing transformation in my own health….we are talking my mental health…..and how it effects my physical health.

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You see because of the traumas I experienced in my past….my fight, flight, freeze was always on hyper-alert.  And dysmorphia definitely distorts that and makes it even more intense.

So my excuse factor for why I couldn’t do something, show up somewhere, and keep a schedule was always…well full of excuses.

Over the years with ministry and business I have worked more and more on this.  But 3 years ago I made a commitment to myself that I had to truly think before I committed to something so I wouldn’t back out at the last minute.  So that once I set a date, put something on the schedule or told someone I would be there…..I HAD TO DO IT!!!

It was hard at first…..because it is not that I didn’t want to be true to my word….but you have to understand…..trauma….particularly sexual abuses…..creates this distortion in the brain that EVERYTHING is a potential danger.

I wanted to once and for all be braver and start rewiring my brain to believe and KNOW it was okay to have an amazing ministry and business, to support women, to be the best version of myself.

And that is what I have done.

I have consistently been showing up EVERY TUESDAY for a Facebook Live…..and every week I schedule wellness calls with clients…..every month I provide a wellness workshop…..AND I DO NOT CANCEL ON MYSELF OR ON THEM!!!

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What have you cancelled on that was due to your fight, flight, or freeze being in hyper alert?!

Sit with this….pray about it…..journal….tap….and oil up!

Many blessings always,

Kelly 🙂

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Saturday’s Sorrow & Self Care

Do you sleep in on Saturday or Sunday?

I don’t typically sleep in…..and technically I didn’t this morning! BUT….I did fall back asleep while I was doing my morning prayers….lol!

Buuut…..I needed to give myself grace…..my body was ready for some rest.  I had a full week with my daughters schooling.  She is finishing up her 10th grade work this month and we will start entering into her junior year of schooling in July…..whew…..the time flies by.

Talk about needing a lot of peace!

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And then I read in the paper (which let me tell you I don’t keep up on current news very good….cause it just hurts my heart too much!)……but I read on the front page this morning about the shooting in a Mosque that was actually posted on Facebook and I felt the need for peace even greater.

We as parents stand and get up each day doing what we think is best to prepare our kiddos for the adult world.  We have to try to not transfer our fears to them.  Fears that may have been from our own past.  Fears of: are they are going to make it?

Soooo many fears.

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And I have to tell you I DON’T WALK IN FEAR.  I really am quite relaxed and laid back….heck my sweet hubby probably thinks I don’t worry enough, or that I am too cheery or gentle about other things.

BUT…..when world events slap me in the face I have to pause…..and I can either choose to think: I can’t send my daughter off into that….

OR….I can choose to lean on God’s promise of “fear no evil”!

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I HAVE TO DO THAT!

If I don’t I will box her up in bubble wrap and send her off to some remote island…..and then NO ONE would be able to experience all her amazing gifts and talents.

It would also mean I was giving into the fear the enemy wants us to have…..and with fear brings anger, hate, ugliness, and so much more.

So I KNOW that my rest this morning was a way that my body was saying take in some peace…..Lent has just begun and there is much healing to still take place…..not just for you but for the world!

I hope today you will join me in a moment of prayer for those whose lives were taken in New Zealand…and all the loved ones who have to heal from the devastation left behind….

But I also DARE to ask you humbly…..please pray for the soul of the shooter…..his is obviously so distraught….that he chose to cross a line to enter fully into an evil act……one he can’t take back.  He turned his back on God in such a way that it has to have us wonder…..WHAT is HIS pain…..WHY!?

As always please set aside each day to sit…pray….journal….tap….and oil up!

Many blessings and hugs always,

Kelly

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