When was a time in my past I truly felt comfortable in my own skin? Didn’t feel shame from traumas and choices?
Have I ever NOT compared myself?
What are the causes/roots?
These are all questions I really dug into about a year ago on my healing journey. As I was connecting the pieces to the beautiful puzzle of me, I have had to realize…..this journey is ALWAYS….it will ALWAYS BE WORK…..and that’s ok!
Because I am willing to work on connecting my body-spirit health I am able to recognize all the times in the past when I was sabotaging my healing. When I was sabotaging self-love. When I was believing the lies of shame and ugliness.
So here is something to reflect on when you have said you were going to do something…make a change (lose weight, stop drinking, spend less, avoid sugar, be patient….the list goes on)…..and you find yourself “failing”….I want you to think about who doesn’t want you to succeed?
Who wants you to continue to sabotage your healing…..your connected health?
Then take it to God….tap with HIM about it! Renounce the lies of the enemy and find GODS AMAZING HEALING LOVE!
Hugs and blessings dear beloved ones…
I don’t weigh myself! I shared this fact last week. So why do I not weigh myself (anymore)!?
The last time I did was in February; and it had been about 6 months before that. It was the most unloving thing I had done in a long time. I had felt “bullied” into doing it. My darling husband didn’t realize his suggestion of me weighing myself for my health journey to track my thyroid health was actually a terrible idea. He thought it would be helpful if I knew a reference point. But he didn’t realize how much of a trigger weighing myself is for the dysmorphia.
I have found freedom and a sort of kinship to two other amazing women who have created a voice to empower other women. BeautyBeyondBone (blogger) and Maddy Moon (blogger, podcast-er, personal development coach). They both provide amazing inspiration and hope to women all over within their given gifts and talents.
They have each shared in the past how they know they don’t want to weigh themselves. They realize how destructive it is for them in their self-love. I am there. I have not seen a conventional/traditional doc in so long that I haven’t had to be weighed. Now I feel empowered and strong enough to know how I would handle the institution if a doc asks me to get on a scale.
I will first ask if it is necessary. I will be upfront about the dysmorphia and would rather not be weighed. If they feel it is necessary I will let them know I will only be weighed if I step on it backwards and I don’t want to see the number nor be told the number.
I AM MORE THAN THAT NUMBER!!!
Some may say well then you haven’t overcome!? Are you really free!? But this is the thing…..when we KNOW ourselves and we continue to journey on our living in God’s will we learn even more about ourselves. Because of the fall we all have an area (or two or more) in our life where we struggle, where we need to be vigilant. I am free from the pain and burden of dysmorphia because I DO AVOID TRIGGERS. I am aware of what could be potential triggers and I don’t tempt the line.
Do you struggle with the number you see on the scale?
Stop weighing your value or worth based on the number you see on the scale. God doesn’t care about that number and neither should you.
Sit with this…..pray about it….journal about it….
Using grapefruit essential oil: diffuse or put on your pressure points or even on your tapping fingers…..however you feel grapefruit is going to be most supportive. This is the oil of honoring your body.
Now start your set up:
Karate chop spot: Even though I feel anxious about my weight (or fill in what it is about the scale or your weight that you feel most emotional about, be as specific as possible), I completely and totally love and accept myself. (3 times)
Let your heart guide you through the sequence tapping words of bringing to surface the emotions of it.
When I have checked in after 5 rounds, whenever I tap, I like to do a round of tapping thanking God. So I may end with something like, “Thank you Lord for how beautifully wonderfully made I am!”
Many blessings, prayers, and hugs dear beloved ones!
PS…..if you would like to gain in confidence about tapping, learning about oils, and creating an amazing self-love wellness plan I would love to provide a free 30 minute consult with you! Call, text, email, message me! CONNECT WITH ME! 🙂
I was reading an email the other week from Dr. Isabelle Wentz. She was sharing about her healing journey. It use to be difficult for her to look at pictures of herself being too thin while she was getting to the root cause of her Hoshimoto’s.
It was interesting for me because for the longest time the opposite was true for me. My thyroid storm didn’t just trigger my genes for the Hashimoto’s it became a trigger for my dysmorphia. Something I had worked really hard to put into its own “remission”. It was brought back into full force.
It had taken me years to finally not believe the lies the enemy was whispering in my ear about me not being beautiful and worthy, of not being skinny enough, not strong enough, not muscular enough. He played on my wounds and shame from being sexually victimized a large part of my childhood into my early adult years.
I thought I had broken free from the lies but then when my thyroid storm took place and my body dropped down to 97 pounds I couldn’t be happier,or so I thought. I had to get really honest with myself when I was first on my true healing journey. I was able to remember when I was 97 pounds thinking “ooo maybe I can get to 95….maybe 90.” What the heck?!
So when I went to my friend, a nutrition coach to help me figure out why I couldn’t sleep, why I was so tired, why some days I was sleeping 12-14 hours, why I was putting on weight, and why I felt crazy. I knew I wasn’t really wanting to solve the problem of all the symptoms. I just wanted to be 97 pounds again.
I remember early in my healing from Hashimoto’s journey, I would get so frustrated and think, “Well hell if I am going to have symptoms I would would rather feel like crap at 97 pounds versus feeling like crap at 117 or 125 pounds.”
I actually don’t know what my weight is today and that is a story I will save for next week :)….
I have clarity now when I see my healthy vibrant body. I see what it has gone through. And how much it has healed: mind, body, soul, spirit. My body deserves my love and respect.
I have been reading an amazing book: “You’re Not Crazy And You’re Not Alone: Losing the Victim, Finding Your Sense of Humor, and Learning to Love Yourself Through Hashimoto’s”, by Stacey Robbins. A quote that really resonates with me today is: “I care more about my adrenals now than the size of my thighs!”
That is so true.
Do I still get triggers!? Absolutely. The enemy doesn’t rest. He desires for me to turn away from God and how better to try to do that than to take my past traumas, twist it into a mental disconnect, twist it with a thyroid condition, and try to convince me that I am not beautiful just as I am.
But now when I have a trigger I stop, renounce the lie and fill myself with the Holy Spirits strength. I find the Essential Oil that relates to the emotions I am feeling and I then practice EFT, tapping. I tap it away!
I give thanks to God for all these amazing gifts He has provide for me, for all of us, to help us learn how to continually battle the enemy.
Now, when I see a woman with legs that I may find myself coveting (whether super thin or beautifully thick and chiseled) I stop and bless her. Then renounce, oil up, and tap.
On Saturday I’ll share a self care routine of oils and tapping. How to help support yourself through triggers. Until then reflect on what are your triggers?
How can you support yourself to not give into the lies? Sit with it….pray about it….journal about it…..share with me about it!
Many blessings and hugs always dear beloved ones!
PS…..Are you open to learning more about healing and support through dysmorphia and or Hashimoto’s or just learning how to love yourself better!? I would absolutely love to hear from you!
Message me through Facebook or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Breathe in how beautifully….wonderfully made you are!
Did you know that when you are struggling with letting go of grief and pain you are feeling unloved! And self love is sometimes the hardest to find.
We hold on to:
Today I challenge you to to find the courage to be fully open to:
- embrace life
- care for yourself
- love yourself
How can you BREATHE in how amazingly beautiful and wonderful you are? How can you BREATHE in LOVE OF SELF today?!
Sit with this…..pray about it….journal about it….share and connect with me in the comments below!!!
Blessings and hugs dear followers…family…friends…
Do you ever feel:
- Fear of being yourself?!?
Why are we so cruel to ourselves? Why do we not love ourselves to see how amazing we are!? Why do we not see how important we are?! Why do we even reject ourselves?! And why oh why do we fear being ourselves?!
I love how Lavender Essential Oil supports all these and so much more! When I use Lavender I am reminded to relax and see I am important. I am able to remember that my voice must be heard. I am able to look in the mirror and remember: YOU HAVE NOTHING TO FEAR!!
How do you need to love yourself better with Lavender?! Using your voice? Being yourself? Knowing you’re important?
Sit with this….pray about this….write about this….share/connect with me below in the comments!
Many blessings dear followers…friends….family….