Numb…anger…sorrow!

Raw and real moment!

I have been tapping more the last 3 days than I probably average in 30 days!

My father passed away on Tuesday morning….and the emotions I have experienced have been extreme and everywhere.

I was on my way to see him on Sunday but while traveling I received a call that he was in the heart hospital to have some tests done.

He has a history of heart stuff and multiple stints so no surprise other than knowing that if he was doing this on a Sunday he definitely wasn’t feeling well.

The first emotion I had was frustration. I had not seen my father in over a year and due to the protocols with hospitals right now I was not going to be allowed to go in and see him.

Monday they determined he needed another stint. They did the procedure and the thought was he would be able to come home that evening….buuut…..there was more bleeding than expected from the spot.

So second major emotion….anger that he had to be in a hospital alone….he is a social person…he thrives on others spending time with him! His top love languages were time and touch.

They decided to keep him another night. Now none of this stopped me from being creative to see him.

I had a care package delivered to his room and arranged with the floor nurse to open his window so we could sing to him and cheer him up. It was so much fun and I’m so grateful to have had that as his last moments with us.

Tuesday morning THE call came early…..my mom comes out to the kitchen as I was making my coffee…..she hands me the phone and says she doesn’t know what to do.

The nurse on the other end is explaining to me that they are giving him CPR but if they stop his heart will stop what does my mom want to do.

I tell her I will call her back as I talk to my mom….knowing that it won’t come to that cause sure enough the nurse calls back within in minutes and let’s me know that they had to call the time of death.

Next emotion…numb…I didn’t truly have time to truly feel anything cause my mom needed me. My time would have to wait. So I tapped some more.

Tuesday night as I got ready for bed….deep sorrow….gut wrenching sobs….but I only allowed some to come…..why?! Cause I knew if I lost it right then I didn’t know if I would return….

It was a choice to pause the sorrow….right or wrong….it was a choice I made…..

Wednesday was about processing…being with family….and trying super hard to stay present in the moment so I could truly feel all the emotions and not stuff them away….

I know it hasn’t truly fully hit me…..

But today we meet with the Funeral Home….we find out when we can actually have the funeral and then coordinate it with the church and due to again all the protocols that have been put into place due to this last year…..we are stuck with anger….

Anger that his last days were in-humane…..anger that his family and friends won’t get to have the closer they deserve….anger that he died alone without family!

So I tap…..and I find the gratitude of the having had 46 years with him….gratitude that he was the gentle soul he was….and gratitude that we did have some amazing memories.

So this next year will probably look different how I blog, post on social media, and even how I coach…..because I know if I’m willing to share with you in the moment what I’m experiencing maybe just maybe I will be able to help someone else who is going through something similar or who is still trying to process the emotions of losing a loved one.

I know my postings probably will be hit and miss for awhile and that too will be part of my willingness to continue to be raw and real with you’ll.

As you spend your last day of 2020….please reflect on all your blessings don’t take for granted one moment with family, friends, community.

But don’t also beat yourself up over “what if’s”…..or “should of”……

Instead move through the emotions……feel them….release yourself….and be present in the healing process.

Your mind body soul spirit will thank you for it!

Many blessings and hugs dear ones!
Kelly 💜

Victorious Veteran’s

Every year our church celebrates Veteran’s day by asking those who have served to stand and be recognized and prayed over.

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August 1992 I stepped on to a plane to enter a season of life that I had no idea would bring me to my hubby.

For 2 months I completed more push-ups, sit ups, running, marching, and bunk drills than I can possibly count….or even keep track of.

I will admit there were times in the past that I never really thought about what it meant to have served in the military.  To me it was a means to the end.  I had grown up in a very small town.  There were so many factors but the point being is I saw the military as truly the best option for me to be the best version of myself.

While I was in the Navy there were days I really hated it.  I wondered what was I thinking.  It was also a time in my life when I continued to received more sexual harassment than I care to count.  BUT…..there truly were amazing blessings that took place.

First, I met my husband.   Because of him I was able to vocalize my wounds, my rape, my abuses, and so much more.

When I met my husband I felt safe.  I finally felt like I could truly be 100% myself.

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Boot camp alone was healing.  It had been that summer that the penetration rape had taken place.  For me boot camp was about “beating” the emotions out of me.  Or better yet stuffing it all in and becoming as tough as I could possibly be, therefore “I could never be hurt again!”

What I really learned from my service in the military was another way to be an intentional disciple!

When you serve in the military it is NOT about you……IT’S ABOUT THE GREATER GOOD!  You make sacrifices, you put your desires aside to do for others, you have days you really want to throw in the towel but you know others are depending on you so you stand up taller and dig deep to show up and be all you were made to be aka hopefully be the best version of yourself!

And most of all you truly learn what it means to do team work and to be a leader!!!

So today I am able to reflect on my military service with humbling pride.  I don’t reflect on it anymore as “ugh” or “oh yeah I did that….”  No today I reflect and am so very grateful for my years of service.  Years that formed my early adult years.  Years that taught me I was much stronger than I ever would have thought.  And years that introduced me to my amazing husband.

Today I am also reflecting on all the men and women who have made amazing sacrifices for their country.  Who have said yes to provide us the freedoms we sometimes don’t even thing about…..and no to so many of their own desires.

This week reflect on your own dreams….your own sacrifices…..your own ways you serve: your family, your community, your Lord!

Remember to pray, journal, tap, and oil up!!!

Many blessings….prayers….hugs…

Kelly 🙂

PS…..this month is super exciting to start a wellness journey or taking your empowerment to the next level! Check out the November Deals Tab above!

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As always when you’re open and ready to begin your own healing and hope journey with your whole health I would love to be your guide…your coach….your mentor.

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I’m here to serve and bless you when you are ready!

 

Self Care = Strength

What am I doing this month on Facebook?!

Today’s video….you can watch by clicking on the link above!

I’m going to get raw and super real and vulnerable this month on Facebook! So if you don’t already follow me….please click this link: Facebook: Kelly Frick: Connect to follow me!

This will ensure you don’t miss any postings or videos when I go live this month.

I’m going to talk about topics that not everyone likes to admit about them selfs….things that are important to bring out so the true healing can take place:

  • Orthorexia
  • Disordered eating
  • Dysmorphia
  • Chronic exercise
  • Self hate

And how through these challenges we can grow stronger to realize:

WE ARE ENOUGH!

And that we are NOT our body!

I’m super excited to share deeper with each of you my hope and healing journey into true, full, whole health: mind body soul spirit!

And as always if you find value in what I share with you please spread the word and share my blog, youtube, Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn, Pinterest or even twitter with others!

I have a passion to bless and serve as many people as I can in my lifetime…and I know I can do this one drop at a time…and one person at a time….and you can help me with that mission!

Have a wonderful warrior Wednesday. And as always remember you are wonderfully beautifully made!

Blessings, hugs, and prayers always!

Kelly 🤗

September: Love equals Self-Care

I’ve been reflecting this weekend on what September has in store for me! There are sooo many amazing things I’m planning and have scheduled.

For starters, next week I will be providing a 4 part workshop series for women who have been rescued from sex trafficking. I have modified my “I am Enough” presentations to address their specific needs.

I am beyond thrilled to have been asked to come in and present and love on these ladies with empowerment tools like journaling, eft, and oils.

But we are also going to be digging into the deep stuff of healthy relationships with our body and food and even our mind. We will address topics like eating disorders, dysmorphia, orthorexia, and more. We will talk about how when our sexuality has been used and abuse how that effects us emotionally and why we are more susceptible to these mental disorders.

This has been interesting for me because it means I have to put myself back into the thick of when I felt my weakest and how I felt. It has me having to really dig into the dark parts of my mental disconnects and realize even some areas that well…..weren’t as healed as I thought.

But that’s also the amazing thing about this… it has me continually working on my healing so I can be that light and guide of hope and healing.

As I have been preparing…I realized even though I’ve done various workshops and presentations in the past on these topics I’ve never done an on-line event with it. And I need to….not just for me but for those who want to do private healing through some of this.

Sometimes we aren’t ready to be that open and vulnerable in a group of others….it needs to happen eventually…but it’s ok to give yourself grace to heal in your way….in your time….and with God loving you the entire time.

I will announce the date of the on-line mini-retreat soon.

But to give you a sneak peak of what to expect it’s a 4 part series/event:

1. The story of our body: how and why we are made.

  • Our stories
  • Healing, hope, health

2. The gift of self care through:

  • Baths, walks, massage
  • Podcasts, books, journaling
  • High vibration food and sleep

3. The Mirror: Saying I Love You!

  • Mental disconnects like eating disorders, dysmorphia, addictions
  • Emotions, hormones, what does this all mean? What are the roots?

4. Emotions: acknowledge, embrace, release, rewrite…

  • Understanding how all of the above are important.
  • How eft and essential oils support this healing journey.

I can’t wait to release the date and further details!!!

On a totally separate note…

This month in the amazing dōTERRA world of these powerful gifts from the earth…there is a deal that I have NEVER seen during my 2 years of partnering with them!

They have several of their start up kits that are 20% off….which really if you look at the retail price they are over 40% off….saving hundreds of dollars!!!

These are the start up kits:

So if you have been on the fence about if natural remedies are for your physical health, your homes health, and your emotional health…trying to figure out if it is right for you…now may just very well be the time!

In addition to these amazing savings you will receive FREE from me personally:

  • Empowered Wellness overviews (anywhere from 2-5 FREE…the coaching doesn’t stop!)
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  • Plugged into a private group full of continual support, education, training, coaching, videos, and more!
  • Unlocking continual savings and freebies!
  • Unlocking potential freedoms!
  • And the final initial gift is the Hope Oil from me! This means not only do you receive a special free oil right away but you have the amazing feeling of knowing that 100% of this oils cost goes to stopping human trafficking and this is FREE from me! You are helping me help others have their freedom!

Are you open and ready to start this amazing hope and healing journey with your health?

Are you open and ready to start you’re transformation?

Are you open and ready to start your self care this September?!

Reach out…message me….contact me on Facebook through messenger…..or email kellyfrickconnect@gmail.com comment and share below…..let’s connect!

I’m here waiting….I’m holding space for you….I’m praying for you…..because I know your are worth it…..I know you’re enough!

The question is do you know it?!

Hugs and prayers always!

Kelly

my.doterra.com/kellyfrick

PS…this is my favorite way to help you get started:

✨September Specials✨

Save an extra 20% off the Home Essentials Kit!?! (and others, but this is my favorite). This truly is the best prices of the year to get started! This kit is retail $366.67 and is now on sale for only $220 this month only for people new to dōTERRA!

This month’s promotions are:

-Save 20% when you enroll with a specific kit (see image above)

-Free 15 mL Lime with purchase of 125 PV LRP order (Sept. 1-15th)

-10% off Cardamom this month

-Baby Line is back in stock for a limited time, and it’s not just for babies

PPS….

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CHAPTER 12: NAKED WITHOUT SHAME

Several months back I was able to finally attend a workshop…kind of like a day retreat…presentation by CHRISTOPHER WEST!!!

I truly felt like a school girl getting to meet her high school crush.  I have been an avid student of his information for over 15 years now!  He has shared the teachings of St. JPII in so many ways….to reach all all seasons of life….that he truly astounds me in his gifting.

After the day was over my hubby asked if I wanted to wait in the line to get a book signed.  Part of me wanted to but part of me felt great peace in knowing our paths would cross again.

It was because of his bringing to light the teachings of TOB (Theology of the Body) from St. JPII that I am able to bring you the next chapter of my healing journey!!

May this chapter bring you Hope and Healing on your Health Journey…..and to remember YOU ARE ENOUGH!!!

My hugs and prayers always,

Kelly

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CHAPTER 12: NAKED WITHOUT SHAME

Shortly after speaking up for myself I had changed jobs.  It was spring of 2002.  I was commuting about 30 minutes each day to work.  I decided I would finally start listening to an audio book that had been sitting on my shelf for almost a year: “A Crash Course in the Theology of the Body: Naked Without Shame” by Christopher West.  This book utterly changed my life.

It planted a seed of within me of KNOWING I was more than my body.  I WAS beautifully, wonderfully made, AND that our sexuality should not be a source of shame and pain.

I remember as I drove back and forth to work, how I truly did not fully comprehend what he was saying.  But  there was something so internal within me that felt such peace, such freedom.  I felt a part of my pain and shame willing to break free.  I felt part of me beginning the healing process that I had no idea needed to take place.

I knew there was something amazing in these teachings.  Christopher West was taking the teachings of (now Saint) Pope John Paul II had been sharing with the world for many years during his Wednesday Audience addresses.

There were two seeds that this book planted during my drive back and forth to work for many weeks.

Seed one:  I can love my husband and enjoy our union without shame.  That we TRULY were made for more than our physical form….our physical gratification of give and take.

Seed two:  When we have children this must be the foundation of our children’s upbringing.

At the time I honestly did not pay attention to the details of who was the pope who had delivered this information that Christopher West was bringing light to all of us to know and learn from.

But I don’t find it coincidental that it was the same Pope we would be experiencing that year at the World Youth Day in Canada.

What I especially don’t find coincidental was how my husband and I had been learning more about our faith and fertility because of our own challenges with trying to conceive.  We were able to finally see the wisdom of the Church of being aware of our fertility thus including God in ALL aspects of our life, including the bedroom.

I became so passionate about understanding our fertility and how God had wisely empowered us to understand our cycles, to monitor our cycles, to respect our cycles and our union as husband and wife, I became a fertility practitioner for a short period of time.

This was all God’s amazing plan in opening my eyes to my hurt and pain of my past traumas and choices.  This was God’s way of beginning my healing in a way that I couldn’t have even imagined.

Do you find yourself questioning: what is our sexuality all about anyways?  Why is it so confusing?  Why do I feel so much shame?

Let’s take a look at the blend of: Douglas Fir, Marjoram, Forgive

Douglas Fir:  We just recently used this oil with addressing dysmorphia.  Now it is time to have this powerful oil help support us with the generational healing of how our Sexuality has become distorted.  Remember, Douglas Fir is about generational wisdom.  When we have knowledge we can learn from the past.  We can break free from the destructive traditions and behaviors of our families past.  We can bring new life and new growth and healing into our own life as well as to those in our future.

Marjoram:  Healing isn’t an easy task.  It means we have to let others in, trust others, connect!  Deep down we desire to connect with others…to let others in, but it means we have to let our barriers down.  Because deep down we desire intimate connections.  We don’t want to sabotage our relationships.  Marjoram softens our heart to allow trust to take place, to not be overly protective.

Forgive:  Here we are introducing our first blended oil, meaning it has several oils in this one.  This blend is about renewing.  We must desire to not only forgive those who have done us wrong but to forgive ourselves in all aspects of life choices.  When trauma especially has taken place it can be difficult to not view life with a cynical view.  When we are bold and brave to forgive we are able to break free from anger, bitter, judgement, resentment, and blaming.  We are able to truly open ourselves up to not fear love.  To not fear anything life has in store for us.

Diffuse these three oils together or create a roller bottle so you can place them on pulse points.  These are especially powerful oils to tap with.  They will encourage amazing emotional release through your prayer and tapping.

Prayer:

Oh Heavenly Father….I am ready to break down the barriers of pain, shame, judgement, bitterness, and all those emotions that hold me back from true freedom…true living….I know I must let go of the past….to not let the past behaviors of mine and of others to dictate my happiness and wiliness to connect with others….especially those whom I love and want to experience the fullness of their love….by your grace I know I can overcome these barriers and find the freedom to forgive…..and Lord if there is any part of me angry with you, please open my eyes to it….and help me to restore my faith and love with you…..because I KNOW I NEED YOU…..AMEN.

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Bossy Boys

It’s been soo weird going back through all of this junk to write this book!  Because this is the thing….I don’t hate nor dislike ANY of my abusers.  And actually I have them ALL on my prayer list.  I truly lift them all up in prayer and with love.  True love.

I’ll admit part of me has wanted to retreat in fear that I am going to make someone angry, be accused of hurtful things, etc…..but that is exactly what the enemy wants.  I have not ever included anyone’s names purposely.  Because this isn’t about them.  This is about my healing, my journey, and me helping YOU.

And really these men, boys, in my life were just as much a victim, a pawn.  They had their own wounds to heal from.  And we all have choices on how we heal or hide from our wounds, our sins, our hurts.

So I hold nothing but love in my heart for these boys.  I didn’t just arrive to this love….it took time…but I am so grateful for how free I feel today in knowing that my 20 years of all forms of sexual abuse DO NOT DEFINE ME and that I am able to truly see HOW BEAUTIFULLY WONDERFULLY MADE I AM!!

I pray this chapter (below) will create healing in your health journey, especially if there is any aspect of it that speaks to your heart!

Many blessings and prayers always,

Kelly 🙂

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CHAPTER 5:

BOSSY BOYS

When I was 12 I had the opportunity to start earning a little bit of money busing tables.  It was a small town.  My mom was friends with the owner of the restaurant.  Add to it, it was the early 80’s who knows what the child labor laws were.  I grew up going to this restaurant all the time.  So it wasn’t a huge stretch me working there eventually.  My brother did odd jobs off and on for my parents in their business but I didn’t want to work for my parents.  I loved the hustle and bustle of the restaurant.  It again was a great place to observe people and listen to conversations.  I really admired the head waitress and wanted to work with her.  Now the owner had two boys who were friends with my brother.

These boys were truly wild.  They were mean and sweet all in the same breath.  I had fun hanging out with my brother and his friends most of the time.  I soon discovered that like my brother’s other friend, they too were exposed to porn.  But the porn they had access to was not only everywhere, their house, at the restaurant, in their dad’s truck, but it was pretty hard core stuff for in the 80’s.

Like I mentioned, these boys were intense.  When they could be really sweet but when they fought it was like nothing I had ever witnessed before.  I truly would get scared sometimes being around them.  Not wanting to ever be on their bad side.

Now I loved working there at the restaurant but it was also a home away from home for me.  I would hang out in the back room even when I didn’t have a shift.  There was always great snacks there and a tv room and privacy.  My parents printing business was sometimes too loud for me and this back room was a nice place to study, write, think and take naps.

The problem was sometimes when I took naps there I would be woken by someone touching me.  I would lay there frozen praying they would just stop and go away.  I knew it was one or both of the boys.  And having seen them fight before I would find myself wondering if I would be the target of them “beating” on me if I resisted.  But there was also another thing that held me back.  A sensation that confused me.  I didn’t understand it.  In hindsight I am able to understand we were made for desire and it is a natural physical response to want touch. The problem was their touches were not from God they were from their own abuse of being exposed to porn.  This went on for a while before I realized they weren’t going to stop, so I no longer had a safe escape in the back room.  This also created another layer of shame and ugliness I felt about myself.

I stayed working at that restaurant from the ages of 13-18.  I just never allowed myself to be in the back room ever again with the boys.  But my year’s waitressing just further exposed me to pats, grabs, lingering hands and innuendos while I poured refills of coffee to the “grumpy old men” club during the mid-morning or mid-afternoon.  They would do these things in the middle of me pouring when I was at my most vulnerable because I never wanted to spill, make a mess, or burn any of them.  This reinforced my unworthiness and shame.

Console, Marjoram, and Clove together will provide the comfort to unburden our pain so we can truly stand up for ourselves to trust ourselves to connect with others.

Console:  Sometimes we can feel anxious that an abuse will reoccur.  We aren’t able to find comfort. We need to grieve the loss of our innocence.  Console helps us unburden these pains.  To see our WHOLENESS through God’s eyes.

Cloves: This oil of Boundaries encourages us to let go of a victim mentality.  To stand up for ourselves.  To have the courage to say no.  It is especially helpful for breaking patterns of abuse.

Marjoram:  We were created for connection, community.  Trust is important to feel connected, to participate in life.  But when we have experienced an abuse, a trauma, that has shifted our heart and mind toward others, it is hard to truly feel connected.  Marjoram will open our hearts and soul to make the connection to trust, to heal.

Diffuse these three oils together or create a roller bottle so you can place them on pulse points.  These are especially powerful oils to tap with.  They will encourage amazing emotional release through your prayer and tapping.

Prayer:

Heavenly Father, I TRUST IN YOU! I don’t need to hold on to this pain, the anxious feelings that I will continue to be hurt.  I can be open to receive others love and still maintain healthy boundaries.  Boundaries doesn’t mean I am closed off from connecting to others as you designed us to.  Instead my boundaries are to ensure I am loved and treated as you desire us to be loved and treated.  I am beautifully and wonderfully made.  And I WILL NOT LET ANYONE TELL ME OTHERWISE, NOT EVEN MYSELF.  In your most holy name I break free from the burden of pain.  I am not a victim.  I do TRUST IN YOU.  Thank you….I love you….amen!

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