Words cannot describe the pain…the sorrow….the utmost intense emotions I felt last night…
Yet the excitement….the joy…..the peace and healing….
Actually there is another time I felt the same exhaustion from a movie…..the Passion by Mel Gibson.
Last night my family and I attended a “red carpet” event of Unplanned. Our parish church organized a viewing of the movie before it was to be released today.
Actually it was a woman from our church, who organized this event, who is truly passionate about serving others and bringing about light to the world.
This was not an easy movie to watch, for many reasons.
One…I know Abby Johnson! I’m not close intimate friends with her….but one of my dear friends is! She attends our parish, she is on the parish counsel with my husband, and I have had the blessing to visit with her on a few occasions at different gathers.
She IS a warrior woman!
She is a beautiful example of what I share here all the time….and at workshops……and presentations……which is:
TELL YOUR STORY!
Get it out of you….don’t allow it to hold you in shame…..in bondage!
None of us have a pretty bow wrapped story. They are all varying shades of messy. But when we hide them deep within us we are allowing the enemy to separate us from our most amazing, loving FATHER!
Abby Johnson was brave and bold to share her story to THE WORLD! And that alone will continue to be her true healing path.
Being open and honest about your story is a powerful instrument….tool…..of healing.
It is a way to forgiveness……GOD ALREADY FORGIVES US AND LOVES US…..but sometimes we stay in bondage of pain and shame and hurt…..because we haven’t forgiven others…..or most likely we haven’t FORGIVEN OURSELVES.
That un-forgiveness can lead us to so much pain but most of all it can and will effect our health…..first our emotional health…..then our mental…..and finally our physical!
Because the body is an amazing creation! Our body knows it’s connected to our mind, our heart, our spirit, our emotions. It doesn’t try to separate all that we are made up of, as so many doctors or even us, try to do too often.
For me this movie was moving beyond words…..and also very healing. Knowing that the anniversary of the loss of my sweet precious Sam is this weekend, and the D&C that took place on the 1st…..well let’s just say lent is already a difficult time for me most years…..yet also healing and renewing…..but this movie definitely had me doing some ugly crying!
It had me reflect on my own path of life…..my own wounds……my own pain and choices.
I have always been a huge pro-lifer……but I use to not always be as loving and compassionate in how I approached the subject.
And after one of my rapes….even being a pro-lifer…..there was a brief moment of panic when I thought…..”what if I get pregnant?”…..
And finally my saddest thought that took me quite a bit to heal from was when I did loose my precious baby several years back……the shame I had of relief!
My husband and I had struggled for so many years to conceive our daughter and had fought super hard to try to have another. We had finally given into the peace of: it was not meant to be.
Yet when our daughter was nearly 8 we discover we are pregnant, I was less than thrilled. All of a sudden I was having to figure out how I was going to adjust to all the changes it was going to bring. We had BIG plans that year….we had a routine. WE WERE COMFORTABLE.
I should’ve been thrilled but I wasn’t. I had just gotten my health back on track and here this precious baby growing inside of me was going to create havoc with all that. I was selfish in my thoughts. That’s not too harsh….it’s the truth.
My dearest of friends consoled me and comforted me. She was with me through the whole journey. She would ask me the nitty gritty questions….the hard questions. And would remind me deep down what I really felt. Which was that I REALLY DID WANT THIS BABY BUT I WAS AFRAID TO WANT IT! Because what if…..!?
And then WHAT IF DID HAPPEN……and I felt the immense amount of guilt and shame. I blamed myself for waaay too long. But luckily by that point in my journey I had my safe people that I could be vulnerable and honest with….like this friend…..and know I wouldn’t be judged for having human thoughts and feelings.
Many people will go to this movie because they support the cause…the message….the truth.
Many will NOT go to it because they don’t want to hear it.
Some will even waiver because it was given the rating of R…..which is hogwash….our daughters under 18 can go to have a legal abortion but not old enough to go to this movie!?
But I think EVERYONE SHOULD GO FOR THE REDEMPTION MESSAGE they will receive from it.
This movie is about so much more than exposing PLANNED PARENTHOOD……its truly about LOVE, FORGIVENESS, JOY, PEACE…..HEALING!
Have you had an ugly kind of cry recently? I honestly think everyone should about 2-3 times a year….it’s cleansing for the soul….cleansing for the emotions…..and yes cleansing for the body!
Go to this movie….have an ugly cry…..sit with it…..pray about it…..tap and oil up……and see how it moves your emotions, mind, heart, soul, energy in a different direction!
Many blessings and hugs always dear ones,
To learn more….Unplanned premiers TODAY, March 29 at a theater near you.
To see the trailer and find the nearest theater visit https://www.unplannedfilm.com
For resources on post-abortive counseling and support visit http://hopeafterabortion.com
For other resources and ways to find assistance with a crisis pregnancy in your area visit
If you would like to know about 40 Days for Life visit https://40daysforlife.com
For more information about Abby’s ministry, And Then There Were None, which helps abortion worker get out of the industry visit https://abortionworker.com