Numb…anger…sorrow!

Raw and real moment!

I have been tapping more the last 3 days than I probably average in 30 days!

My father passed away on Tuesday morning….and the emotions I have experienced have been extreme and everywhere.

I was on my way to see him on Sunday but while traveling I received a call that he was in the heart hospital to have some tests done.

He has a history of heart stuff and multiple stints so no surprise other than knowing that if he was doing this on a Sunday he definitely wasn’t feeling well.

The first emotion I had was frustration. I had not seen my father in over a year and due to the protocols with hospitals right now I was not going to be allowed to go in and see him.

Monday they determined he needed another stint. They did the procedure and the thought was he would be able to come home that evening….buuut…..there was more bleeding than expected from the spot.

So second major emotion….anger that he had to be in a hospital alone….he is a social person…he thrives on others spending time with him! His top love languages were time and touch.

They decided to keep him another night. Now none of this stopped me from being creative to see him.

I had a care package delivered to his room and arranged with the floor nurse to open his window so we could sing to him and cheer him up. It was so much fun and I’m so grateful to have had that as his last moments with us.

Tuesday morning THE call came early…..my mom comes out to the kitchen as I was making my coffee…..she hands me the phone and says she doesn’t know what to do.

The nurse on the other end is explaining to me that they are giving him CPR but if they stop his heart will stop what does my mom want to do.

I tell her I will call her back as I talk to my mom….knowing that it won’t come to that cause sure enough the nurse calls back within in minutes and let’s me know that they had to call the time of death.

Next emotion…numb…I didn’t truly have time to truly feel anything cause my mom needed me. My time would have to wait. So I tapped some more.

Tuesday night as I got ready for bed….deep sorrow….gut wrenching sobs….but I only allowed some to come…..why?! Cause I knew if I lost it right then I didn’t know if I would return….

It was a choice to pause the sorrow….right or wrong….it was a choice I made…..

Wednesday was about processing…being with family….and trying super hard to stay present in the moment so I could truly feel all the emotions and not stuff them away….

I know it hasn’t truly fully hit me…..

But today we meet with the Funeral Home….we find out when we can actually have the funeral and then coordinate it with the church and due to again all the protocols that have been put into place due to this last year…..we are stuck with anger….

Anger that his last days were in-humane…..anger that his family and friends won’t get to have the closer they deserve….anger that he died alone without family!

So I tap…..and I find the gratitude of the having had 46 years with him….gratitude that he was the gentle soul he was….and gratitude that we did have some amazing memories.

So this next year will probably look different how I blog, post on social media, and even how I coach…..because I know if I’m willing to share with you in the moment what I’m experiencing maybe just maybe I will be able to help someone else who is going through something similar or who is still trying to process the emotions of losing a loved one.

I know my postings probably will be hit and miss for awhile and that too will be part of my willingness to continue to be raw and real with you’ll.

As you spend your last day of 2020….please reflect on all your blessings don’t take for granted one moment with family, friends, community.

But don’t also beat yourself up over “what if’s”…..or “should of”……

Instead move through the emotions……feel them….release yourself….and be present in the healing process.

Your mind body soul spirit will thank you for it!

Many blessings and hugs dear ones!
Kelly 💜

I Love Me!

I hear women (friends, family, clients…even strangers)……tell me all the time they don’t love themselves…

They don’t like this about themselves….etc.

BUT…..they will when they reach a certain physical goal….

REALLY?!

Cause let me tell you what 10 years ago I had what I thought was a dream come true: thigh gap!

And I was miserable!

What I didn’t know was I had obtained that thigh gap because of a thyroid and adrenal malfunction…..my body was literally burning itself up!

All I knew at the time was I had finally achieved a coveted goal….and I still didn’t love myself!

And when my body started to heal….I started to put muscle mass back on…..I started to look healthier and feel healthier…..yet I still didn’t love me!

How I started to truly love me…..no matter what I looked like….was connecting to my inner me….my soul…..and really working on my self talk….my mindset….

I started pulling out ALL the tools in my toolbox…..and went to work on my TRUE healing of SELF LOVE!

I can honestly say I LOVE ME!

This doesn’t mean I don’t have physical goals. This doesn’t mean I don’t have health goals.

What this means is I don’t judge me!
I don’t compare me!
I don’t bully me!

I only love me….and the skin that I’m in!

Are you ready to TRULY love you?!

Hugs and prayers always,

Kelly 😘

Rest, Restore, Reconnect

On Sundays I love sitting in the bliss of knowing that God himself took a day of rest!

I think He did this for multiple reasons…

But I think the biggest one was to set the example to us.

When we don’t stop to reconnect with Him and ourselves for one day a week how can we possible remember to do the same just a little bit each day!

Having the discipline of truly unplugging from work, hustle and bustle, the world…..for just one day a week is more important than you can imagine!

I challenge you this advent to start truly setting aside a whole day that has you connecting to God and therefore yourself…

I know you will find how to better love yourself thus growing and strengthening your relationship with God….and as your grow in your relationship with God you grow in your self love! Do you see the beautiful cycle of hope and healing?!

Have a glorious Sunday!

Hugs and prayers always,

Kelly 💜

40 Days to Freedom

If you have hung out with me here for any amount of time you know I am a huge advocate of all types of fasts: Spiritual, Nutritional, Absolute, Intermitent….etc.

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For me it does not matter what type of fast I go into it is always taken into prayer…..and sometimes it is actually given to me through prayer and then me re-taking it into prayer so I can hear clearly what I am supposed to be doing.

But one of the biggies I usually do with a fast is I usually do not share with many people;  usually only 1 or 2 are brought into it.  And that is because it was spoken into me shortly after my huge transformation with fasting in the beginning.  God pressed it into my heart that all fasts forward were to remain private unless told otherwise.

Well here I am years later Him telling me loud and clear…..this one is too big for you….you need to be united with others….lots of others.

Why?

Because there is a HUGE DISCONNECT with who we are as people and in our healing.

There are sooo many hurting people turning to sooo many different types of addictions (drugs, alcohol, pornography, food, shopping, apathy, body…etc).   And why?  To avoid the work of healing.  And why?  Because healing is hard work!

Healing means you have to be willing to go THROUGH the pain….not around it.

Healing means you have to open your eyes to and bring to the front what you have been avoiding.

So on September 2-October 12, I will be entering into a fast that is intentional in praying for people who are struggling with addictions.

I think we probably ALL know someone who is burdened by addiction.  Who has been enslaved by the lies of its soothing denial of the truth.

I can’t do this alone.

So regardless if you enter into a fast or just add extra prayers during those 40 days….are you open to add the intentional prayers for those struggling with addictions?

When we CONNECT our prayers and spirits together we truly CAN move mountains!

Have an amazingly blessed day and labor day weekend!

My hugs and prayers are always with each and every one of you!

blessings,

Kelly 😉

PS…want to learn all about the types of fasts?  Just do a search here on my blog with the keyword ‘fasting” and you’ll come up with ALL the times I have written about fasting and the ways we can approach this powerful spiritual and physical tool!

PPS….check out the updates in the tabs above…..some awesome stuff ;)!!!

 

Hormones: Groan!

When I look at my beautiful daughter I hate that I passed on to her my hormonal imbalances!

But what she has that I didn’t have at her age is so much more understanding of it…and how to overcome and transform her health!

One way our hormones can be imbalanced is being estrogen dominant.

Estrogen dominance can be very common, and despite knowing the signs and symptoms of this condition, you should also know what to do if you are suffering from it.

💧The 10 most common symptoms of estrogen dominance:

Abnormal menstrual periods

Low libido

Fatigue

Bad PMS (breast tenderness/swelling, mood swings, and headaches)

Hair loss

Weight gain (especially hips and abs)

Brain fog

Trouble sleeping

Thyroid dysfunction

Sluggish metabolism

Here are the steps you should follow in order to restore the healthy hormonal balance in the body:

💜Step 1: Eliminate Xenoestrogens

We are constantly being exposed to various chemicals, and one of them is “xenoestrogen,” which can mimic estrogen in the body.

Therefore, in order to avoid these adverse effects, you should avoid the use of the following top offenders:

Plastic Tupperware

Plastic water bottles

BPA cans

Cosmetics, makeup, and toiletries

Tap water

Non-organic dairy, produce

Soy protein isolate

Dryer sheets

Birth control pill

💜Step 2: Elimination (ie: poo 💩)

This step is essential as it will ensure the removal of estrogen, and prevent its re-entrance into the bloodstream in the case of chronic constipation.

Make sure you are having daily bowel movements, and in case you are not:

Drink 2-3L of water daily

Increase the intake of fiber-rich foods

Increase the intake of vegetables with every meal.

💧Add the TerraGreens to ensure extra fruits and veggies!

Consume probiotics:

💧PB Assist

💧PB Assist Jr

💪🏻best taken before bedtime to restore gut.

To promote bowel movements, supplement with magnesium citrate or Triphala

Moreover, in order to help the removal of waste and toxins from the body, you should also:

Exercise or go to a sauna to stimulate sweating

Breathe deeply to support the lungs

Massage your body to support the lymph

Use a dry skin brush to eliminate dead skin cell.

Use your oils with dry brushing!

Oils for lymph drainage support:

💧Purify

💧DDR Prime

💧Slim&Sassy

💜Step 3: Improve Liver Health and Estrogen Detoxification

Estrogen is effectively removed by a well-functioning liver. In the first stage, the liver turns harmful estrogen intro milder, weaker forms of estrogen, and in the second stage, it converts it into a water-soluble form, so you can eliminate it through the stool or urine.

Yet, the liver won’t be able to fulfill its function if the body lacks important nutrients, or it is overburdened with other chemicals, accumulated due to the use of processed foods, drugs, and alcohol.

To support the function of the liver, you should:

Drink lots of filtrated water

Do not drink alcohol

Each a real, whole-foods based diet

Avoid overeating

Eat foods that support liver health, such as kale, dandelion greens, beets, garlic, eggs, dark leafy greens, artichoke, onions, leeks, shallots, broccoli, cabbage, Brussels sprouts, etc.)

Taking supplements that are rich in detoxifying vitamins and minerals is super helpful.

Such as:

💧LLV

💧GX Assist

💧Zendocrine

In order to kick start your metabolism and improve your overall healthy by detoxifying and energizing the body try:

💧Mito2Max

💧DDR Prime

💧cleanse and restore kit/system

Finally center yourself each day!!!

Find 5-10 minutes at least once if not twice a day to truly reflect on your whole health!

Sometimes when our estrogen is out of whack and we’ve done all the physical and nutritional needs then that means we have some mental, emotional, spiritual stuff we need to address.

But we aren’t going to know unless we stop to center ourselves and find some alignment within ourselves!

How are your hormones?!

As always I hope you take a moment to sit….pray….journal….tap….and oil up today!

Hugs and prayers always,

Kelly 💜

Wellness Workshops

I remember the first time I ever experienced an AromaTouch technique…I was becoming certified to do the work on others.

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It was an amazing feeling. And I realized I needed to experience this more often. It was a way I could easily incorporate self care and love of self.

So I’m excited that this May’s Wellness Workshop is all about this amazing detox system I provide!

I will be covering what it’s all about….the 8 oils that are used and why…..

The AromaTouch Technique is an amazing experience to connect with our health.

It allows us to address and strengthen our physical and emotional health.

During May’s workshop we are going to dive deep into it how we can nurture our self care, detox, and support our whole health with the AromaTouch technique.

With Mother’s Day in May let’s honor our femininity, our self care needs, and see how we can start incorporating things like an AromaTouch technique on a consistent basis.

This months class will also have some simple “sample” options to experience.

There will also be purchase options available to take home that day.

Have you ever thought about how self care can help you with detoxing this spring?!

Save your seat 👇👇👇….

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Don’t forget to take a moment on this amazing Monday to sit, pray, reflect, Journal, tap…..and oil up!

Prayers and hugs always,

Kelly 💦💜

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UNPLANNED: Hope, Healing, Health

Words cannot describe the pain…the sorrow….the utmost intense emotions I felt last night…

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Yet the excitement….the joy…..the peace and healing….

Actually there is another time I felt the same exhaustion from a movie…..the Passion by Mel Gibson.

Last night my family and I attended a “red carpet” event of Unplanned.  Our parish church organized a viewing of the movie before it was to be released today.

Actually it was a woman from our church, who organized this event, who is truly passionate about serving others and bringing about light to the world.

This was not an easy movie to watch, for many reasons.

One…I know Abby Johnson!  I’m not close intimate friends with her….but one of my dear friends is!  She attends our parish, she is on the parish counsel with my husband, and I have had the blessing to visit with her on a few occasions at different gathers.

She IS a warrior woman!

She is a beautiful example of what I share here all the time….and at workshops……and presentations……which is:

TELL YOUR STORY!

Get it out of you….don’t allow it to hold you in shame…..in bondage!

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None of us have a pretty bow wrapped story.  They are all varying shades of messy.  But when we hide them deep within us we are allowing the enemy to separate us from our most amazing, loving FATHER!

Abby Johnson was brave and bold to share her story to THE WORLD!  And that alone will continue to be her true healing path.

Being open and honest about your story is a powerful instrument….tool…..of healing.

It is a way to forgiveness……GOD ALREADY FORGIVES US AND LOVES US…..but sometimes we stay in bondage of pain and shame and hurt…..because we haven’t forgiven others…..or most likely we haven’t FORGIVEN OURSELVES.

That un-forgiveness can lead us to so much pain but most of all it can and will effect our health…..first our emotional health…..then our mental…..and finally our physical!

Because the body is an amazing creation!  Our body knows it’s connected to our mind, our heart, our spirit, our emotions.  It doesn’t try to separate all that we are made up of, as so many doctors or even us, try to do too often.

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For me this movie was moving beyond words…..and also very healing.  Knowing that the anniversary of the loss of my sweet precious Sam is this weekend, and the D&C that took place on the 1st…..well let’s just say lent is already a difficult time for me most years…..yet also healing and renewing…..but this movie definitely had me doing some ugly crying!

It had me reflect on my own path of life…..my own wounds……my own pain and choices.

I have always been a huge pro-lifer……but I use to not always be as loving and compassionate in how I approached the subject.

And after one of my rapes….even being a pro-lifer…..there was a brief moment of panic when I thought…..”what if I get pregnant?”…..

And finally my saddest thought that took me quite a bit to heal from was when I did loose my precious baby several years back……the shame I had of relief!

My husband and I had struggled for so many years to conceive our daughter and had fought super hard to try to have another. We had finally given into the peace of:  it was not meant to be.

Yet when our daughter was nearly 8 we discover we are pregnant, I was less than thrilled.  All of a sudden I was having to figure out how I was going to adjust to all the changes it was going to bring.  We had BIG plans that year….we had a routine.  WE WERE COMFORTABLE.

I should’ve been thrilled but I wasn’t.  I had just gotten my health back on track and here this precious baby growing inside of me was going to create havoc with all that.   I was selfish in my thoughts.  That’s not too harsh….it’s the truth.

My dearest of friends consoled me and comforted me.  She was with me through the whole journey.  She would ask me the nitty gritty questions….the hard questions.  And would remind me deep down what I really felt.  Which was that I REALLY DID WANT THIS BABY BUT I WAS AFRAID TO WANT IT!  Because what if…..!?

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And then WHAT IF DID HAPPEN……and I felt the immense amount of guilt and shame.  I blamed myself for waaay too long.  But luckily by that point in my journey I had my safe people that I could be vulnerable and honest with….like this friend…..and know I wouldn’t be judged for having human thoughts and feelings.

Many people will go to this movie because they support the cause…the message….the truth.

Many will NOT go to it because they don’t want to hear it.

Some will even waiver because it was given the rating of R…..which is hogwash….our daughters under 18 can go to have a legal abortion but not old enough to go to this movie!?

But I think EVERYONE SHOULD GO FOR THE REDEMPTION MESSAGE they will receive from it.

This movie is about so much more than exposing PLANNED PARENTHOOD……its truly about LOVE, FORGIVENESS, JOY, PEACE…..HEALING!

Have you had an ugly kind of cry recently?  I honestly think everyone should about 2-3 times a year….it’s cleansing for the soul….cleansing for the emotions…..and yes cleansing for the body!

Go to this movie….have an ugly cry…..sit with it…..pray about it…..tap and oil up……and see how it moves your emotions, mind, heart, soul, energy in a different direction!

Many blessings and hugs always dear ones,

Kelly 🙂

PS….

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To learn more….Unplanned premiers TODAY, March 29 at a theater near you.

To see the trailer and find the nearest theater visit https://www.unplannedfilm.com

For resources on post-abortive counseling and support visit http://hopeafterabortion.com

For other resources and ways to find assistance with a crisis pregnancy in your area visit

http://www.priestsforlife.org/crisis.html

If you would like to know about 40 Days for Life visit https://40daysforlife.com

For more information about Abby’s ministry, And Then There Were None, which helps abortion worker get out of the industry visit https://abortionworker.com

 

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