Enough Already…

I am enough!!!

I will have to probably repeat that mantra…my affirmation…FOR THE REST OF  MY LIFE!!!

It is my weak link…my access point for the enemy.

It’s not that I don’t know it…I DO!!!

It’s not that I don’t feel it…I DO!!!

It’s not that I don’t believe it…I DO….most of the time….

And there in-lies the problem…my weak point…my access point where the enemy whispers his disgusting lies!!!

I had a difficult hour last week when the whole day had been beautiful, wonderful….then….in a blink of an eye… all came crashing down on me.  It was my amazing wise, 40-year-old-stuck-in-a-14-year-old-body, daughter that had me reflect on what was really going on internally.

We talked about hormones…periods…emotions.  Her statements and questions were basically directed to the fact that: just because I don’t still have a period my body system still has hormones.  She was right.

She sensed I needed ClaryCalm and Serenity.  I laughed cause I don’t really like the smell of ClaryCalm.  Its too floral for me.  But if there is anything I have learned about the essential oils when we don’t really like a smell….especially if we have a negative reaction to it….it may mean our body REALLY needs it!

My daughter was soooooo right….

It stirred up emotions of continual healing from losing Sam.  Sam should’ve been born 6 years ago around this time.

A year later I needed a hysterectomy.  Therefore, present day I don’t experience the beautiful signals our beautiful female bodies will naturally share with us about our hormonal cycle.  Before the hysterectomy I charted my bio-markers.  This allowed me to see my estrogen build up and rise, then drop off.   Actually for me I was able to see the dysfunction of being estrogen dominant.

Our bodies are beautifully made.  They are continually talking to us.  Our bodies share with us how to take care of them, how to be healthy and strong.  Yet, I don’t have that ability anymore.  Even though my hormones are still doing something inside.  I don’t have the bio-markers to guide me anymore.

This is a reminder that I won’t carry any more children.  How can I possibly be enough for my hubby…my daughter…for God…oh the lies our enemy tries to fill in our heads.

The monthly blend, ClaryCalm, is the oil of vulnerability.  NO WONDER why I DON’T like the smell of it!!!

Who likes to feel vulnerable….IT MEANS WEAKNESS…..but that is a LIE!!!

What it really means is being open to true warmth and love in relationship.

My daughter had wisdom with this oil that she didn’t even know or understand.  But her spirit knew….and her connection and bond to me was supporting me and sharing with me what I needed to know to support myself and to continue the healing process.

This blend helps release emotional tension from the ovaries; to release suffering and dread.  We as women tend to have this surround our periods.  but since I don’t receive a period I have this build up of hormonal emotions that I don’t have bio-signals for anymore.

This can cause me to want to be even more guarded and closed.  Add to it loss, past traumas with men, and shame….but….that’s the beauty of continual healing…

God reminded me through my precious 14 year old that ClaryCalm is what I need to support myself.  I need to continue to grow in vulnerability, grow in healing, grow in knowing I AM ENOUGH.

I WILL learn a new way to monitor my hormones and with patience I will find a balance.  After all God has shown me so many other things through essential oils, tapping, plant based living, and so much more….I KNOW He will help me find a new way to find my hormonal rhythm…naturally…HIS WAY!!!

Do you struggle with feeling enough?  Do you need to open yourself up to vulnerability?  Hormonal balance? 

Seek out God’s rhythm for you!

He will remind you just HOW ENOUGH YOU REALLY ARE!!!

Sit…pray…journal…oil up….tap…and most important seek God through all of it!

As we connect one drop at a time to WHOLE health….mind body soul spirit…

you have my hugs and blessings always…

Kelly 🙂


Feeling Fabulous on Friday

I remember the first piece of clothing I ever altered growing up.  It was a red and white polka dot summer dress.  It had wide straps that crossed in the back with this large bow of the same material.  It wasn’t an A-line, it had gathering for the seem at the waist for the skirt part of the dress.  I loved this dress when I found it on the clearance rack of what ever store I had been perusing.  The problem is it was 2 sizes too big.  But the price was great! It was under five dollars!  I couldn’t pass it up.  My thought was even if I totally mess it up I at least have only spent five dollars and I can always use the material for something.

I have never sewn clothing from a pattern or from scratch.  That requires way more disciple and rule following for my type of artsy mind.  I have always enjoyed seeing something I have and tweaking it.  Or seeing somethings potential.

The last 5 years I fell out of the habit of altering and sewing stuff for myself.  I still love looking for my bargains either at department stores or thrift shops but trying to find something that sparks that perfect joy or that wonderful fit is sometimes not so fun.

As I have become more aware of self-love, self-care, and owning only things that spark joy I have been finding myself leaning toward altering things again. I have realized there are some clothing I really like but I don’t like how the manufacture designed it to be.  If it’s on the clearance rack and I really like it and the only thing holding me back is because it is too big then I am going to evaluate if I am capable of the alteration job I would want to do to make if feel fabulous!?

That is what I did yesterday for a about an hour and I loved every minute of it.  I really love the smooth material of yoga or running pants but it seems like any more you can’t find ones that are made like jogging pants style.  They are all designed to cling and fit tight to your body.  This is just not what I want to wear.

 A while back I found a couple of yoga pants on crazy clearance but they were too big, especially in the waist.  But I really liked how they felt and fit.  I decided to bite the bullet and get them.  For several weeks I kept pinning the waist or rolling them til I could do what I really wanted to do.  The day finally came I was able to sew them and tailor them to my body, my shape, my life!  AND THEY MAKE ME FEEL SO HAPPY….THEY TRULY SPARK JOY!  Not just because of the way they make me feel, but because of the opportunity to also delve back into a craft I once loved dearly and had let fall to the way side.

Thus my message today has many layers…lol…

1.  Only own clothing that makes you feel fabulous.  That reminds you how amazing and beautiful you are RIGHT NOW!

2.  Only own clothing that spark joy to ensure you see nothing but the amazing and beautiful being you are RIGHT NOW!

3.  Rediscover a lost art, talent, craft, hobby, whatever……THAT SPARKS JOY IN YOUR LIFE….and dig in…don’t put it off….start doing it again today!

I think these 3 things are so pivotal with self care and self love…..especially for women!

Our society has brain washed us about sooooo many things but I think the number one is setting us up to compare ourselves to other women all the time.  Whether it is the model in a magazine or on a billboard.  Whether it is the mom who seems to do it all and have it all.   Many of us have fallen for this lie and trap, at-least once in our life,  to think we are not ENOUGH because we don’t have the measurements to fit into a particular brand.

I say you’re not the wrong size, the company got it wrong so you have to just move on to the next brand, company, or dare to create your own size that is catered…tailor made just for you!  Made to put a smile on your face, a skip in your step, and a flutter in your heart when you look in that mirror and say HELLO GORGEOUS YOU ARE ENOUGH!

Have a fabulous Friday….and remember you are amazing….I know I am…..especially in my new “K” Brand of pants :)…..

Blessings and hugs,

PS….today’s book picture is a unique and amazing book about health and wellness.   Here is a man who truly was able to get into a woman’s mind and peel away the layers of what stops so many women from succeeding with health goals.  His book is I believe a fabulous way for women and men to start seeing health and nutrition in the whole body experience and to therefore learn how to truly love yourself and to create a habit of self care.   I had the amazing pleasure to meet him several years ago and he is truly an amazing man!

Day 13: Are you enough?

When did women start feeling like being a wife and mother wasn’t enough?

When did any of us feel like we have to be and do ten different things in order to have value…to have importance…to have life?


I love my vocation…my calling…my life!   And you should to!

Today rather than feeling like you are not ______ (fill in the blank) enough….


What EVER it is you find yourself saying that you are not enough about….STOP….read the reflection I took a picture of….ponder on the words….and know that HE KNOWS YOU’RE ENOUGH JUST AS YOU ARE…HE LOVES YOU JUST AS YOU ARE!

This isn’t a pass on working on ourselves: MIND, BODY, AND SOUL….we always have work to do…but instead it allows us to love ourselves exactly where we are at and to love the process of growing…love the process of change…love the process of learning…love the process of insight…

I smile today…even knowing some of the challenges I have going on…I smile still because I KNOW I am an amazing…strong…beautiful woman…BECAUSE HE MADE ME IN HIS IMAGE!!!

And for me being a wife and mother is beyond a full plate and I am just not interested in having 2 or 3 plates in front of me!  I have given up over eating :)….I like taking my time and savoring the dish I have in front of me and appreciating the wonderful delights I receive from that one plate!

What about you?  What can you do today to change your “not _______ enough” thoughts into AMAZINGLY CONTENT WITH LITTLE AND WITH GROWTH thoughts?

~Kelly 🙂

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