ADRENAL FATIGUE! This is not something to play with. There is so much information out there but let me tell you it is real.
In January my doctor pretty much gave me strict orders to lower my stress and to be in bed by 9 and not be up before 6. He also said to do restorative movement not running or HIIT kind of exercising. I needed to reduce my caffeine and alcohol. Blah blah blah…I listened pretty strict for the first month and then we entered into lent and again I was able to keep to the dietary needs and sleep but I started allowing running and more intense workouts to creep back into my life. After Easter more red meat…more coffee..more wine…pushing the bedtime…and I found myself hitting a wall again.
I realized I must truly give my body the rest it is begging me for. I continue to be en-flamed. And all I’ve been reading about how if I don’t get my adrenals in full health before I enter menopause
it will make that stage in life much more difficult. Thus I MUST not think of vanity right now but about health…true internal health!
Everything I’ve been learning about the symptoms and causes of adrenal fatigue
make total sense to me. It confirms for me that I did push myself too much 3 years ago. I can’t take it back. What I can do is accept that I must do the right thing for myself now and be healthy: mind body soul.
It’s the perfect opportunity for me to truly live a life of saying I love myself no matter what. That I am still strong…still healthy…still amazing…even if I don’t ever run again.
My trying to recover from Adrenal Fatigue has brought out healing and facing body images issues that have been freeing. (More on body image and it’s relationship to Dysmorphic Disorder
in a future post).
I know I am healthy. I know I am beautiful. I know I am amazing. I have amazing strength. I look great.
I had to face the fact that between my bio-hacking
experiments (more on that in another post) and my adrenal fatigue has created a huge hormonal mess… I find myself not always feeling great about what I see.
But this is where faith …tapping into my spiritual life… is vitally important. Because I don’t let those negative voices sway me. I tell them to go away…I look myself in the mirror…I smile and I say: I am beautifully made!!!!!
And I am!!!!
God doesn’t make junk!!!
Thus, I will continue to live up to the promise I made my dynamic daughter over 12 years ago while she was still in my womb…to never ever speak negatively about myself. To always show her through my life and love that we are defined not by what we look like but by our heart.
And you know what if I have to never run again, never have caffeine or wine again, never stay up late again, and weigh a bit more than my mind thinks I should than that’s OK. Because the picture of Health isn’t always what it appears to be.
I love what Maddy Moon shared about how she experienced being at her leanest and how it about destroyed her.
AS we raise dynamic daughters to become wonderful warrior women we must be willing to always evaluate our own self…
What are the things that we value:
vanity over virtue?!
Ascetics over health?!
Pain over purpose!?
So I again say…I am okay with if I can’t ever run again. And I will continue to show my daughter through my actions:
I am a valuable amazing person just as I am!!!
I love my life….especially with all it’s challenges….all its hurts, pains, struggles….because I continue to grow and learn from each experience. And I continue to experience God’s amazing power through my weakness!
For no one ever hated his own flesh,
but nourishes and cherishes it,
just as Christ does the church.
ARMOR YOUR DYNAMIC DAUGHTER WITH FAITH, HOPE, AND LOVE….TO FEED HER MIND, BODY, AND SOUL….TO BECOME THE WONDERFUL WARRIOR WOMAN….SHE IS DESTINED TO BE!
hugs, prayers, and lots of blessings,