God is sooooo amazing! I’m not a typical blogger….I don’t schedule things out….I loosely write down what I want to share….but I let the holy spirit lead me.
And it’s been the same way with writing this book as well. I have purposed myself to show up each week to write a bit more between all else I am writing and doing. So I didn’t schedule out or know when this chapter would fall….and it is just further confirmation on how beautiful God’s healing power is when we live in HIS WILL versus our will. Because this chapter has fallen on its anniversary. He has revealed to me the next layer of healing that is so profound and amazing. I shouldn’t be surprised anymore when things like this happen…because they happen all the time to me…..and I’m not so much surprised as I am just in awe as HIS AMAZING GRACE OF HEALING AND HOPE!
May this chapter provide healing and hope for you with your past abuses, traumas!
Many blessings and prayers always my dear one!!
CHAPTER 8: NEW HOPE OR MORE HURT
NEW BOYFRIEND/NEW HOPE:…..It was my senior year, boyfriend #2 was graduated and for the most part: out of the picture. Besides there was a new boy in town. He was a year younger than me but he was intriguing. He was an artist, more sensitive, and had a magnetism that I found alluring. As I got to know him it didn’t matter to me that he did drugs. After all it was only pot and a little bit of acid. What harm could that really be, right?! I rationalized this was what made him so creative and good with his art. It didn’t matter he was into porn. He was able to convince me that it was only another form of “art” and that there was beauty in the magazines. I fell for it!!! I was so confused on boundaries at this point in my life because after all I wasn’t having sexual intercourse so surely I was still a virgin, therefore I couldn’t possibly be doing anything wrong. I didn’t know how to talk to my parents because really they didn’t know how to talk to me about the beauty of our sexuality. They didn’t have TOB (Theology of the Body) to teach me.
This new boyfriend was good to me when he wasn’t high. He was tender and loving, when he wasn’t high. I thought this was a good thing. It was when he was high or trying to make a score that things weren’t always smooth. One time I got in trouble and yelled at for his pot blowing away while we were out at a park. The very next day was when I felt I couldn’t say no when he decided to push the boundaries past what we had set. And he wasn’t going to take no for an answer after all I owed him for his pot blowing away. Now at this point in life I couldn’t discern if it was or wasn’t rape because after all I was broken goods.
Has your past experiences made you feel like “broken” goods? Made you feel like since you’ve allowed certain boundaries to be crossed you don’t have a right to say no to the next boundary?!
Let’s take a look at the blend of: SPEARMINT, GINGER, CITRUS BLISS
SPEARMINT: when a person has been raped there is a very deep need to have courage to speak up. To make a stand against the wrong that was done to them. There is a need for clarity and conviction in speaking up for themselves.
GINGER: rape can cause a victim mentality that can paralyze a person into hiding. Ginger releases the warrior within you to address the limiting belief that you are a victim.
CITRUS BLISS: When your body has been used and violated there is a strong temptation to give up on truly living. We need to restore our confidence, live abundantly, find the magic in living again.
Diffuse these three oils together or create a roller bottle so you can place them on pulse points. These are especially powerful oils to tap with. They will encourage amazing emotional release through your prayer and tapping.
Heavenly Father, lead me to scripture that reminds me that I AM NOT A VICTIM…..I HAVE A VOICE…..AND THIS LIFE IS MAGICAL BECAUSE YOU CREATED IT FOR ME! I know that your word, the bible, is your personal love letters to us and that it is where I can go for peace, hope, healing…..today I will let you lead me to the words that are going to help me on this journey. In your most precious love and mercy…thank you….AMEN!
Are you ready to start Hope & Healing in your physical, mental, and spiritual Health journey?! I am here to bless and serve you!
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