Hope or Hurt?!

God is sooooo amazing!  I’m not a typical blogger….I don’t schedule things out….I loosely write down what I want to share….but I let the holy spirit lead me.

And it’s been the same way with writing this book as well.  I have purposed myself to show up each week to write a bit more between all else I am writing and doing.  So I didn’t schedule out or know when this chapter would fall….and it is just further confirmation on how beautiful God’s healing power is when we live in HIS WILL versus our will.  Because this chapter has fallen on its anniversary.  He has revealed to me the next layer of healing that is so profound and amazing.  I shouldn’t be surprised anymore when things like this happen…because they happen all the time to me…..and I’m not so much surprised as I am just in awe as HIS AMAZING GRACE OF HEALING AND HOPE!

May this chapter provide healing and hope for you with your past abuses, traumas!

Many blessings and prayers always my dear one!!

Kelly 🙂

chapter 8

CHAPTER 8: NEW HOPE OR MORE HURT

NEW BOYFRIEND/NEW HOPE:…..It was my senior year, boyfriend #2 was graduated and for the most part: out of the picture.  Besides there was a new boy in town.  He was a year younger than me but he was intriguing.  He was an artist, more sensitive, and had a magnetism that I found alluring.  As I got to know him it didn’t matter to me that he did drugs.  After all it was only pot and a little bit of acid. What harm could that really be, right?!  I rationalized this was what made him so creative and good with his art.   It didn’t matter he was into porn.  He was able to convince me that it was only another form of “art” and that there was beauty in the magazines.  I fell for it!!!  I was so confused on boundaries at this point in my life because after all I wasn’t having sexual intercourse so surely I was still a virgin, therefore I couldn’t possibly be doing anything wrong.   I didn’t know how to talk to my parents because really they didn’t know how to talk to me about the beauty of our sexuality.  They didn’t have TOB (Theology of the Body) to teach me.

This new boyfriend was good to me when he wasn’t high. He was tender and loving, when he wasn’t high.  I thought this was a good thing.  It was when he was high or trying to make a score that things weren’t always smooth.  One time I got in trouble and yelled at for his pot blowing away while we were out at a park.  The very next day was when I felt I couldn’t say no when he decided to push the boundaries past what we had set.  And he wasn’t going to take no for an answer after all I owed him for his pot blowing away.  Now at this point in life I couldn’t discern if it was or wasn’t rape because after all I was broken goods.

Has your past experiences made you feel like “broken” goods?  Made you feel like since you’ve allowed certain boundaries to be crossed you don’t have a right to say no to the next boundary?!

Let’s take a look at the blend of: SPEARMINT, GINGER, CITRUS BLISS

SPEARMINT: when a person has been raped there is a very deep need to have courage to speak up.  To make a stand against the wrong that was done to them.  There is a need for clarity and conviction in speaking up for themselves.

GINGER: rape can cause a victim mentality that can paralyze a person into hiding.  Ginger releases the warrior within you to address the limiting belief that you are a victim.

CITRUS BLISS: When your body has been used and violated there is a strong temptation to give up on truly living.  We need to restore our confidence, live abundantly, find the magic in living again.

Diffuse these three oils together or create a roller bottle so you can place them on pulse points.  These are especially powerful oils to tap with.  They will encourage amazing emotional release through your prayer and tapping.

Prayer:

Heavenly Father, lead me to scripture that reminds me that I AM NOT A VICTIM…..I HAVE A VOICE…..AND THIS LIFE IS MAGICAL BECAUSE YOU CREATED IT FOR ME!  I know that your word, the bible, is your personal love letters to us and that it is where I can go for peace, hope, healing…..today I will let you lead me to the words that are going to help me on this journey.  In your most precious love and mercy…thank you….AMEN!

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Anger: God or Sin?

Anger can sometimes be a huge motivator.  We are not talking about the vengeful anger that is driven by sin….but the anger that is actually from God.  The anger that has us pause and want to have a voice for the innocent within this world.  The anger that turns us to not be silent about grave wrongs and injustices.

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God has pressed upon my heart for many years to write a book.  But He didn’t give me direction.  I trusted that my not starting it wasn’t because I wasn’t motivated or lazy it was because I didn’t have its purpose, its passion, laid out yet.

Then last month He revealed to me EXACTLY the outline…..even got the introduction written.  I realized that He had been fine tuning me, disciplining me in showing up to write through this blog.  He also showed me how many blog writers end up taking part of what they have written over the years to turn into a book.  As well as many bloggers purposefully using their blog to be their “first draft” of their book to fine tune and get it to the final piece of art.

Needless to say I wasn’t fully heeding His words about the using this blog to fine tune my book….I was still trying to live in my will of thinking I needed to work on this book on the side, while writing here different yet similar content.

Then 2 things happened this week:

  1. Realizing that in a way, you all are my accountability partners of making sure I get this message of Hope and Healing out there.

And….

  1. A horrible evil took place to someone I dearly love that saddened my heart so severely that I found myself weeping for almost 24 hours off and on…..and I still find myself weeping….

But now…..I’m angry!  I am angry the way God wants me to be…..angry to take action.

So what does taking action mean for me:  Using my voice to share MY STORY!

My story of sexual brokenness and distortion through my abuses, rapes, and own choices.  By me being silent and not getting off my butt to write this book I am as the quote goes…. “the only way for evil to conquer (win) is for good men to do nothing….”  Or something like that…..I am terrible with quotes :)…..

So starting next week…..and who knows how often, but I am convicted to share with you each week a chapter of the book….so a chapter maybe spread out through several days…..I am not sure yet…..I guess it just depends on how long each chapter is.  Since I have the introduction already written I will probably start with that next week…..

But I do know there will be life stuff going on in the middle of things I will want to still share so I will probably post those in-between as well…..and I will distinguish in the title or in the first line which it is…..but my focus will be the book and getting this message out there for women to be empowered!

With that……

Do you know someone who has been hurt, abused, raped…..the innocence of their sexuality distorted and used for evil?  If so…..please share with them this blog to help them walk through the healing process.  Encourage them to find help: professional, spiritual, personal.  Be an ear for them!  And don’t ask too many questions….just be that rock for them….and get them to talk to you…to someone!

Please have an amazingly blessed day.  And when you find GOD convicting you about something, feeling anger toward an evil, don’t let it become a sin, instead let it become your motivation to be the change of HOPE in this world!

Essential Drops of love, hugs, and prayers always,

Kelly 🙂

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FAIRYTALES ON FRIDAY?!

OR…

FOR EVER AND EVER..AMEN!…ON FRIDAY!


Once upon a time a young lady lived in a land full of beautiful hills and amazing peace.  
She was in love; or so she believed.  She and this boy came from such different back grounds, different lifestyles, and different beliefs.  Yet, this did not stop her from loving him.  Wanting to please him, and be there for him.
She was heartbroken when he had to leave the peaceful land for a noisier place.  She vowed to visit him soon.  She kept to her promise.  She ventured to the noisy, darker land to see her love.  That is when things went very wrong.  Her love, during that visit, was abused.  Her trust was broken.  Her innocence was stolen.  She came home to the beauty of her land: confused, hurt, and deeply scarred.  Her land didn’t seem beautiful anymore.
She began to doubt simple truths in life.  She began to doubt even herself.  Her ability to understand dark from light, good from bad, right from wrong.  After all, she pondered, if she could allow such darkness to take over, surely she mustn’t be all that bright of a light.
You see, when darkness took place that fateful day, it wasn’t the obvious, insidious kind of evil we all know to stay away from.  IT was the kind that lures us.  The kind that slowly boils and you never realize it has taken hold of you until at the moment you see it and you are so confused.  
She knew and knows this young man was not evil; he did not intend evil, but he allowed his wants to overtake him and evil to influence his mind, to take what was not his.  To steal a gift that wasn’t his to take.  
Over the years the young woman has reflected and realized maybe, just maybe, (at least in her case, her situation) she wasn’t so clear.  Maybe just maybe her no wasn’t loud enough, wasn’t out loud, wasn’t strong, wasn’t there.  What if….
BUT…NONE OF THAT MATTERS….that is the true gift she has learned.  It truly doesn’t matter.  She may not be clear of the events of that day but it will not be her prison.  It will not be her darkness.  The past is the past and she will not let darkness cloud her love for life.  She knows in her heart, that boy, a man now, never intended to hurt her so deeply, to rip her spirit.  He was motivated by a selfish, fleshly want, and allowed himself to not be led by the Holy Spirit.  And she was motivated by pleasing and fear of rejection.
This young lady took years to unravel the web of darkness; to shed light on this darkness; to feel worthy of being loved.  In the midst of her unraveling and healing a rogue knight came into her life.  He was rough around the edges but she saw a glimmer of internal light he wasn’t even aware of.
He helped her melt away the confusion, the pain, the fear, the hurt, the darkness.  Yet, each year she still felt a cloud engulfing her during a particular time, a particular month, a particular day.
Then one year, on that dark memory of a day, she discovered an amethyst.  Some may find this an ordinary gem, but she knew this gem would shine brighter than any she had ever seen.  God presented this beautiful amazing gift to her to replace the dark cloud of those memories.  He wanted to erase that dark day, those feelings…with light, with a reminder that HE loves her!  That she is beautiful.  From evil and darkness, God CAN conquer!  Purity can arise, can outshine and replace the dark.
That is exactly what this beautiful amethyst did.  Each year that passed by, this precious gem grew, got brighter; the darkness became smaller and less important.
One Year, the amethyst turned colors to a glorious Ruby.  That Ruby lasted about 5 years. It was a deep, passionate reminder how Christ shed His blood for us because he LOVES US.  She IS worthy of love.  She IS amazing.
Then, one year that ruby turned into the most brilliant deep sapphire.  It radiated, glowed, sparkled and shone with such brilliance, there was no room for darkness to reside any more.
It created a space in the woman’s heart to realize she not only forgave that boy of past, but there was room for him in her heart to love him, to pray for him.  She prayed he was having as beautiful and blessed of a life as she was.  She truly loved him.  Loved him for, also, being a child of God.
That sapphire continues to shine even brighter each year.  That sapphire is a reminder of Mary’s purity, a reminder of Joseph’s silent strength, of Jesus’ pure sacrifice and undying love.  And a glorious reminder of God’s forever mercy and grace.
This story is truly a story of FAITH HOPE AND LOVE.
LOVE….I do love my life!!!
I adore my knight!  He surrounds me with security, trust, and peace!
My sapphire is the most amazing gem.  I can’t help but feel my breath get caught in my throat every time I look at her.
How and why God felt me worthy to be trusted with such a precious gift, I do not know, I do not question.  
I simply say:  THANK YOU, LORD….I LOVE YOU, LORD!
I love, laugh, and live with abundance of joy and light!
I know that shame lives in darkness.  Satan wants us to live in shame, fear, regret, guilt.
BUT…
CHRIST IS LIGHT!!!! 
We must choose to step away from the darkness into the light.  Because that light is so glorious, so warm, so inviting.  
THE LIGHT wants us to feel nothing but:
LOVE…
FORGIVENESS…
HOPE…
PEACE…

HIM!!!

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