Day 3: Groove to the Gilmore Girls

This was on a shopping back for a business in Colorado…
….I loved what it said!

I have learned exercising, fitness, movement has cycles and I MUST listen to what my body needs.

I approach raising my daughter in a very similar fashion.  I take note of things she is interested in and use that to my advantage to accomplish a goal or growth opportunity I may want her to experience.

She recently has been interested in using her first morning hour before lessons to watch a bit of tv: Jesse, Once Upon a Time, or Gilmore Girls.

I have wanted her to have a bit more structured or consistance exercise in her every day life.

 I have always enjoyed working out first thing in the morning before she wakes up.  I usually work out while praying my rosary or watching something insirational or educational or both :)…..

Out of all that….ah…..the birth of my outside of the box approach of her recieving what she wants while I recieve what I want….and we get to do it together…bond…and have a built in support system for each other.

I have embraced the shift of my morning and am enjoying having the opportunity to remember to take each opportunity to learn and grow with and from each other.

So…this is what my morning looks like for now…who knows how long this season will last…but for now I love it…and am embracing it….

Upon waking I have been praying my rosary while “walking” throughout the house sweeping, mopping, laundry, dishes….meal prep.   This gives me a great way to warm up my body with nice simple movement, get some household things done, all the while remembering how Mary truly walked away from her will inorder to live and breath ONLY God’s WILL!  What a beautiful and lovely way to start my day.

Then once I wake my dynamic daughter….I set up our living room for our movement/workout session to Gilmore Girls….or Jesse.   It’s perfect.  It allows us to do a HIIT kind of workout.  We rotate between the mini trampoline, stepper, weights, and/or body strength movements.  I set the timer for 2 minutes and we have to rotate between stations every 2 minutes.  We proceed to watch, laugh, move, sweat, and have lots of morning moving fun!

What can we all learn from this?

What do you like doing first thing in the morning?  Can you add even 10 minutes of movement/strength in a HIIT fashion workout that gets you breathing heavy, moving fast, gaining strength and raising your body temp!?

Do you watch the news?   Set a timer for 1 minute jumping jacks, 1 min push ups, 1 min. lunges….repeat 5 times….you’ve accomplished 15 minutes of a simple work out, caught the news and are ready to conquer the world.

Do you have to run around first thing in the moring getting kiddos ready, making lunches, convinced you don’t have time for strength….a working out?!

From room to room, do lunges instead of walking.  Do 10 burpees at each kiddos bed; jumping jacks while you are waiting for your coffe to brew.

When you make movement a normal part of your life, you feel normal, you feel alive, you find yourself not focusing on negative thoughts and not obsessing about unhealthy attitudes toward yourself.

Huge bonus to all of this?  You are setting an excellent example for your children (especially daughters)  how to love yourself and do something for yourself that includes them in your everyday life….your everyday way of nurturing yourself: MIND, BODY, AND SOUL!

Todays scripture to focus on is also a prayer….reflect on….

HAIL MARY….FULL OF GRACE….THE LORD IS WITH THEE….BLESSED ARE YOU AMONG WOMEN….AND BLESSED IS THE FRUIT OF YOUR WOMB….JESUS….

HOLY MARY….MOTHER OF GOD…PRAY FOR US SINNERS…NOW…AND AT THE HOUR OF OUR DEATH…..AMEN!!!

Selfies: 10 pound follow up!

JANUARY 2015 – gotta love my daughters mirror!

I’m not a huge fan of selfies….

Yet, I was refelcting the other day of the time when Sarah Fragosa wrote a fabulour post “Own It”.  She was able to show all her hard work in the posting.

I recently shared about the difference of ten pounds and how it can or can’t look on a body.  I realized sometimes a person can talk and talk and share but another just won’t believe it unless they see it.  Oh how very doubting Thomas of us, right….lol!

Thus, here it goes…

This picture is of me when I met with Jason Seib back in July.

JULY 2014 – 

Last week I took the two pictures on the right with basically the same outfit.

I share this because WOMEN….GIRLS….LADIES….and even men…..I want you to understand YOU ARE NOT THE VALUE OF THE NUMBER ON THAT SCALE!!!

JANUARY 2015 ~side shot…

Don’t let that rediculous tool take hold of your happiness!  I  truly do not care what that number says.  That number will not, does not, define my happiness.

I don’t care if I am not “twiggy” this year….or ever again…..we are all unique and beautiful and amazing!!!

How about a unique and different kind of challenge; one that has nothing to do with how you exercise, what you eat, what you want to change physically…..

What if instead… for 21 days you challenged yourself to truly love yourself exactly where you are at!?

What if, first thing in the morning you said:

GOOD MORNING…
YOU BEAUTIFUL AMAZING CREATURE OF GOD!
YOU ARE AMAZING!
YOU ARE STRONG!
YOU ARE LOVED!

Then pick movement that inspires you.

Eat with passion not punishment.

The cool thing is you could start your 21 day LOVE MY BODY, LEARN FROM MY BODY, LISTEN TO MY BODY….this SUNDAY, January 25th!  And complete it as a Valentines gift of love to yourself!!!

Google Marc David.  He is a great resource to help you shift your mindset about eating for your body, mind, and soul.  Check out all he has to say about the psychology of food.  He has a fabulous book, “The Slow Down Diet: Eating for Pleasure, Energy, & Weight Loss”.   An excelllent read.

And then there is Dr. Sara Gottfried….she has a fabulous podcast….THE HEALTH BRIDGE….helping others learn and understand the psychology behind food as well as the hormones that effect our mind, body, soul experience of food, fitness, and fun!

I feel committed to help you with this journey so I will post something for 21 days, starting on January 25 thru February 14.  I will post something short each day that will be encouraging, loving, inspiring for you  on this journey of change….in all the different ways to love yourself through mind, body, soul experiences….whether it be with nurishing recipes, health changes, movement, encouraging scripture,  great reads…..and so much more…

Join me for 21 days to not only change your body, but change your mind, to enlighten your soul!   

What better gift to give yourself for VALENTINES DAY but to start loving yourself RIGHT NOW….EXACTLY WHERE YOU ARE AT!!!

WALK THE WALK FOLLOW UP!

I had every intention to just write out my Spartan goals and plans to share with everyone who would like to join me in this challenge.  Whether you join me physically or would just like to follow my plan to become Spartan ready.  BUT…

Today, as I walked for Life…for Love…for my faith…my family…it allowed me to reflect on many things.  One of the thoughts was definately about how our fitness, our health, is and should be so intwined with our faith.  Heck it had me reflecting on how I would love to do “The Way” walk….talk about a challenge!

As I was reflecting and praying during Mass after communion, I became emotional, and then again as the details were being laid out for the walk I became emotional.  I knew why.  I knew it was because for me each and every January from now on will not just be because I am standing up and giving a voice for all the unborn, the unknown….but because I KNOW intimately one of those unborn.

Four years ago during a very cold January I discovered I was pregnant and couldn’t believe it.  The excitement, then the fear, then all the other emotions that came with it, were short lived because twelve weeks later there was no heart beat.  For me, every January the Walk for Life: Mass, walk, and rosary will be very personal.

Each year I have the opportunity to celebrate the beautiful life that had been growing inside of me.  I  have the opportunity to continue to heal and grow from that loss.  Each year I recieve the opportunity to peel away a different layer of the healing.

The first year the healing was just for the loss of who I would never hold.

The next year it was for the loss of never physically carrying a child in my womb again.

Last year was for the loss and of truly forgiving myself.   You see my heart had not been open to being pregnant.  Even though I had struggled for years to have our daughter.  And then to even try to concieve again.  But….I had become “use” to the fact that we would never be pregnant again.  Thus, when we had found out we were pregnant I was not at a place in my life  I felt I could handle it.  I wasn’t open to the beautiful life growing inside of me.  I felt shame, guilt, and terror for all that I was feeling.  After all, I have always made it loud and clear how pro-life I was and am.  Yet, here I was wanting my will to be imposed and not God’s when I was pregnant.   I struggled with the 12 weeks of trying to figure out what next….when I went into that 12 week appointment and there was no heart beat, I felt numb.  Then tremendous guilt.

Therefore this years tears were for healing and realization of having truly forgiven myself for feeling any responsibility of the miscarriage. Tears were shed in joy and a promise to only live in Gods will no matter the sacrifice.  Because His will is the only way to true Joy and Happiness.  And tears because I had truly forgiven myself and loved myself again.  Tears because I knew because of that pain, because of that shame, I would never ever take any single life for granted ever ever again.
Tears of true freedom.

We all can get set in our ways.  We all can have moments of going through the motions.  We all can be pushy with our will.  BUT….thank GOD for his grace, HIS mercy, HIS love….

Thus ironically how this may not make sense to some reading this….but I realized any challenge, bio-hack, personal goals (Mind, Body, and or Soul)…..MUST be only with God’s will in mind, not my schedule…my agenda….my obsessions….ONLY HIS.

It doesn’t matter if others may think I am weird or out there because HE knows my heart.  Only HE knows what I do, I do with HIM at the head and heart of it all!

I finally not only feel truly free of guilt and shame….I not only have forgiven myself….I not only love myself….I also do not compare…..I do not compare myself to others….I do not compare myself to myself of past…I KNOW I AM AN AMAZING BEAUTIFUL WOMAN WHO IS CONTINUALLY GROWING, CHANGING, LEARNING, EXPERIENCING…I feel tru freedom of the type of detachment that HE asks of us!!!

It is okay to have done something for many years and feel called into a different direction….it is okay to do something for a short period of time and realize it is not the right fit…it is okay to put things on hold to meet other needs…it is okay to want to have one physical goal one year and a different one the next…it is okay to learn something about nutrition one year and shift goals and focuses the next….it is okay to think I am going to teach my daughter one curriculum one year and totally bag it for a different one the next….and it is totally okay to love the skin that I am in because HE made me….and HE is counting on me to love me….so I can love HIM….so I can teach my daughter how to LOVE!!!

AND THAT IS WHAT I AM HERE FOR……

I am here to create a fabulous ripple of life and love for her….not by just my words but by my WALK!!!

I AM AND I WILL WALK THE WALK FOR HER!

I hope this helps even one person out there struggling with shame, guilt, confusion, lack of self-love.  It is for you I write and share this.  It is for you that I allow myself to be vulnerable and a book for all to read!

And it is because of HIS WILL that I find the courage to do all HE asks of me.

Blessings and hugs to all of you!
~Kelly 🙂

Hormones: The Mind, Body and Soul connection!

As I have been reading Sara Gottfried’s book “The Hormone Cure”, I reflect and think….ugh..

Why did I not have this book when I was a young adult not understanding why my periods were more painful than all my other friends would describe…!?

Why did I not have this book when I was going through all my infertility issues?!

Why did I not have this book when I would look in the mirror and my past self would tear myself apart even when my body was perfectly normal, perfectly healthy?

Why did I not have this book when I just didn’t understand how my heart knows one things, my mind is thinking another, and my body is totally doing it’s own dance!?

BUT….I do have this book now….and it has given me great insight on how to continue to manage my hormones.  Really how to help my mind, body and soul travel through this amazing journey of life!

I really loved how when I looked up some of the hormonal issues I have endured with for years, such as PCOS, the book really explained some of what my mind was doing because of my hormones!  One of the really eye opening and freeing revelations was how one of the side effects of PCOS is a distortion of body image.  That even when a person looks in the mirror and knows they are beautiful because God made them…..that even when a girl, a woman, is feeling great about herself….that her hormones will betray her by sending signals to the brain trying to convince your heart that you are less than….that you are not beautifully made!  

It was interesting reading how the studies and years of recording/researching has been able to support this information.

Thus, my point is girls, women, who find themselves being overly critical of themselves….being unloving of self…should evaluate if they are possibly dealing with some hormonal issues that are influencing their negative self-talk!

For me, this realization is freeing because even as I have always tried to have loving self-talk, it has been a wonderful journey to get to where I am at, but I still have days or moments.  Reading the science behind it helps put just one more plate of armor up to ward off dark thoughts.

After all dark thoughts are NOT from God….He loves us EXACTLY AS WE ARE.   Thus, when you find yourself being negative about yourself….stop….shout out “Go away Devil…there is no room for you in this ‘home’….only GOD can reside here!”

I believe that everything is connected: mind, body, soul!  Therefore in this situation, this string of thoughts, as I am sharing about hormones….some may say well it is just about my hormones, what does my soul…God have to do with it?  I say everything!  I say we can’t have one without the other.  Thus if there is light in this world…there is dark…but that’s a conversation for another day…..today I will stay with hormones…with loving self….with making the connection between the two in a whole…mind, body, soul perspective!

Do you think my thoughts are extreme? Overzealous? Over exaggerated?  I would love to hear your thoughts.  

Til next time….remember life is an amazing journey….love EVERY aspect of it!  Love every challenge,   Love EVERYTHING about YOU!

Blessings,
~Kelly 🙂

Femininity on Friday (part 2)

I came across a very interesting study about how men look at women when they are wearing pants versus a skirt.  It was startling and slightly disturbing to me.

Does this mean I am going to give up my pants?  Probably not entirely.  But I do know I have been enjoying wearing skirts, dresses, smock/tunic long shirts with pants or leggings much more.

Thus, it has me continuing this pursuit of learning how we as women can make a change, to recapture our Femininity on Friday, and everyday of the week! 🙂

When I was reading Dressing with Dignity, a reference was made to this study of how when a man views a woman in pants, because of how their brains are wired, they follow straight lines.  Therefore, when women wear pants mens eyes follow the leg up to the crotch or buttocks.  Why is this a big deal?  Because, again since their minds are wired different than ours, they have a harder time controlling their thoughts and keeping them pure.

We, as women, are responsible for the near occasion of sin when we don’t guard and cover our most intimate parts better.

Just like our “privates” are meant meant to be personal, private, between you, God, and your spouse….there are other parts of our body that still don’t need to be “showed off” or accentuated in a such a way that it causes others to think about those private intimate spots.

It is hard to not want to look cute, attractive, and “sexy” (I really don’t like that last word!)  Especially, when a person has worked really hard to lose a bunch of weight or has reached some serious physical goals.  After all who doesn’t want to show off all their hard work of having a ripped six pack in a bikini.  Or defined shoulder caps from hard work of push ups and pull ups.  But, when we feel the need to “show off” who are we trying to glorify?

Aren’t we a temple of the Holy Spirit?  Thus shouldn’t we want to only impress God?  Some may say:  What’s the point in losing weight or setting physical goals if I’m not going to show it off?

The point…

When we set goals , when we are passionate about something, that is the vehicle God is using to achieve His goals through us.  He may see our love for a sport.  He, then, gives us the opportunity to become disciplined, set schedules, to do things to accomplish these goals.  All along the way we are learning and developing set skills for other tasks He may want us to do in the future.

HE SEES THE SIX PACK!  He knows how hard you worked to get them.  He knows it required discipline, sacrifice, diligence, perseverance, etc…to reach your set goal.

HE IS going to reward you! As well as challenge you in other areas of your life to utilize these new set skills, disciplines you learned along the way to obtain a personal goal.

Back to our bikini….or leggings….or spandex…

Who’s attention are we trying to catch?

What is our purpose for wearing something?

Do we really have the right to get mad if a man looks us up and down in a lustful way at the grocery store if we are weary just leggings, tank tops, and flip flops?

Can we kneel in prayer without wondering if the skirt is covering enough of our backside to not get caught on the pew bench and really cause a scene?

Do we really feel good about ourselves if we are walking around half naked and self conscience?

Are we self conscience that others are looking at us in a not so holy manner?

Are we conscience that our undergarments may be showing, showing through, creating lines, etc?

Are we conscientious enough to be aware that other women may not be thinking loving, sisterly thoughts toward us?

What about ourselves?  are we becoming self-conscious enough to not want to be compared to or to compare ourselves to the women around us?!

Society has done a terrible injustice for us women.  AND WE HAVE NOT HELPED IN THIS INJUSTICE.

We must fight to get our femininity back.

Forget about societies influence for just a moment, I wonder sometimes about our own internal struggles.

How many of us women have life experiences that have contributed to our lack of self love, self awareness, lack of knowledge of our true femininity?

How many of us were:
….not taught dignity of dress…
…witnessed other women in our life use their sexuallity as a bartering chip…
…experienced the extreme prudish attitude toward our true sexuality….
…were sexually abused….molested, raped, sexually scared in one way or another…

Therefore, breaking down our lack of self worth to lead us to think we are not worthy.  Does this contribute to the attitude we don’t deserve respect because we are not respectable?

These can and do contribute to our choices in fashion and our attire choices.

                                            

Add societies definition of normal and no wonder why we feel bombarded, overwhelmed and want to throw up our hands in defeat.

BUT…WE MUST NOT!!!

WE MUST FIGHT!!!

No matter the circumstances that have lead us to make the choices we have with our attire, we can change it today.

God will smile and cheer us on for our efforts and hard work!

Our souls will grow and expand.

In return:  your self worth and self love will grow!

Then you can look in the mirror or down at your 6 pack abs with a glimmer and a twinkle in your eye; saying to yourself, “I have a secret only God knows” (and if married, your spouse) and that is just fun!

Stay faithful to our Amazing Lord in all things…even fashion!

Blessings and prayers as always to each and everyone of you as we continue to pursue this amazing life to live full, whole lives: mind, body and soul!

~K 🙂

FRUMPY ON FRIDAY? OR WALKING AROUND NAKED!



Awhile back I was listening to one of my favorite podcasts.  One of the topics was on self-image.  It seems to be a topic that has actually been covered on many of my favorite podcasts recently!
It was mentioned how in the past, going to the gym, meant in baggy sweats and a t-shirt.  The purpose was to sweat not to look fashionable.
The dawn of great engineering to make materials lightweight, breathable, and keep the sweat away from our skin has been wonderful but it has a price.  the material is tight, form fitting, and leaves nothing to the imagination.
     
 This has me pondering…could our attire be contributing to a lack of self-worth?  Self image issues? Lack of respect for our own beauty?  Our incessant need to compare ourselves?
    I have always been pretty modest.   For as long as I can remember, I have never really liked summer attire, especially swimming gear!  Maybe as a teen and young adult it had to do with what I saw in the mirror, and poor self-image.  But I am physically and mentally the healthiest I have ever been as I have entered 40’s door.  And personally I don’t care what others think of me anymore.  
I have learned how destructive self loathing, self criticism, and comparing can truly be.  It is not productive!  It is not from God!
What I have learned over the years is it doesn’t matter how confident I am in my self-image:  I do not like swim suites!  I do not like clothing that plunges too much!  I do not like skirts that reveal too much leg!  
Take the bathing suit as an example.   There is something fundamentally wrong with walking around in something that might cover the essential spots to maintain privacy, “modesty”, but really how much more of a leap does it take for the mind to “uncover” the rest.
The moment I had a little girl I knew I wanted to instill in her a dignity in dress; a strength and pride in her sexuality; a beautiful respect and love for the body God gifted her with.
We have entered the pre-teen years with her; I noticed a shift in some of her outfit choices last year.  She is still very modest and aware of covering herself.  Yet she was becoming more comfortable with walking out the house in leggings, with skirts shorter than she wore in the past rather than longer, and sleeves falling off the shoulders.
It had me reflecting on where her fashion influences were coming from.  There were some TV shows she watched that definitely covered all these attire issues I was having.  There is definitely an influence from stores, media, everywhere….
But I also needed to reflect on my clothing.  I am a large influence in her life.  After all, our first examples for anything in life is from our parents.  So, I had to ponder: was I possibly doing or wearing something that could be creating a mixed message?
I was still covering myself from head to toe.  I don’t like plunging necklines.  I don’t make it a habit to allow shoulders to show in church.   I wear leggings under skirts but never by themselves.  The list goes on.  
I am not a prude….I am not patting myself on the back..I am just stating the facts!
Point is:  I am very aware of how, we as women, have a responsibility in our attire.  I am aware of how we can lead a man into the near occasion of sin through our attire and our actions. 
 I am very aware of, whether we as women like it or not, must dress with dignity, with modesty, with respect….not just to help the mind and soul of the opposite sex, but to also protect our own self-worth and dignity!
Thus, I started to reflect on my own attire. I realized many cloths are becoming easier to wash and not iron, not becoming worn out as much because of the awesome materials, they are made of.  They are becoming easier to wear, due to stretchy material to lend to all body types.  BUT, this comes with a price.
I realized even though I may work out in leggings and tank tops at home..I wouldn’t want to leave out in public that way.  That is walking around naked.  
But…I have other cloths that maybe aren’t far removed from that same look.  
Take my yoga pants for example.  They may flare at the bottom but they are form fitting from the waist to knee.  they are great to workout in, comfy to throw on for quick errands, and many more reasons to wear them! 
BUT….am I being modest enough to just go out in them?  Maybe a way I can make a more conscience effort is if I do go out in yoga pants I layer them with a cute little wrap skirt, or tennis skirt.  I can even use this same layering concept with the workout leggings if I am in a hurry to run an errand real quick!  
Maybe I can use one of the extra long yoga shirts that cover and hang to about mid thigh or longer?  Maybe with some of my dresses I can make sure they are layered  with a light sweater, if they are more form fitting?
 I can show and teach my daughter that we can be feminine and fashionable, have fun with our style, without revealing or sacrificing our true sexuality, self worth, dignity.
***Just think of jeggings!  What are their purpose?  In reality they are leaving NO imagination!  they may cover but they still “reveal” all!
I’ve been reading and learning more in this topic because it is near and dear to me.  I believe it has a huge impact and backing behind so many of the immorality issues  in our society today.  In addition to all the self-worth issues!
Through some of the books and and things I have been reading it has given me the opportunity to dig deeper and examine my own attire.  Just because I may be “modest” doesn’t mean I can’t continually learn, improve, and grow!  Every topic, issue, situation in life needs continual growth, and layering of learning! Think of an onion!!!
This topic is probably more important to me than so many more….I think it is more important than most people give it credit or time!
I think it is an area we can ALL continually learn and grow from.
We all want to look and feel attractive.  But what are we willing to sacrifice.  And at what cost!?
It reminds me of a story a friend shared with me.
A man told her once that he enjoys attending mass at a particular parish because during communion time he is able to watch all the “little” girls go up for communion with their little skirts showing all sorts of things.
IS THIS WHAT HE IS THINKING ABOUT INSTEAD OF…..I JUST RECEIVED CHRIST!
If a man is willing to “undress” our daughters during mass, during the most profound moment of the sacrifice of our Mass, what is he willing to do outside of Mass?
What can we do better, as women to lead men toward Christ?
What can we do better to show we truly love ourselves as Christ wants us to?
To trust God…to believe we are worth more than we are giving, than we are settling for!
Empower yourself…empower your daughter…empower another young girl in your life by constantly striving to love yourself through your thoughts and your actions and your prayer!!! 
Empower yourself…by respecting your beautifully made body!
Faith is love…
love is lasting…
It is true power in faith and love!
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As always….I would love your feedback, your engaging conversation….comments!
And remember to checkout all the above links.  I always add links throughout the blog to share with you some of my favorite places and/or resources!  
Learning is living…
living is loving…
loving is learning…
Blessings always,
~K 🙂

Hungry for Change

I am a strong, beautiful, amazing woman!
Physically, emotionally….spiritually!
NO I am not egotistical….I love myself because I KNOW I am made in the image and likeness of our amazing Lord.  And I know He doesn’t make junk!
This is such a hard thing for so many women, and even men, to realize…to wrap their minds around.  I wish deeply everyone could see their value.  Could feel their value.  Would TRUST that GOD doesn’t make mistakes!
Now I am not perfect…trust me….I have my moments of hormones, of gunk, of “girlie-ness”.   I have grown so much in love with my Lord, that now when those moments happen I am able to reset, very quickly my mind, actually within the minutes of the thought, versus days or weeks.  I am able to reset my thoughts to their proper order:  I am a temple of our Lord!

Do you need a reset?  Do you hunger for change?
I watched a really great documentary on Netflix recently: “Hungry for Change”....
I have watched my fair share of nutritional documentaries always wanting to learn, grow, and spread good knowledge about how our health (mental and physical) are connected, related to our faith (our spiritual).
Many documentaries can start out really great but then they go into a direction that I usually don’t agree with, or I think they have taken something too far, etc.
What I valued the most was how it was finally a nutritional video that not only talked about the science of why eating whole food is so important for us but it also talked about the mental health….even the spiritual health!
One of young ladies talks about accepting yourself unconditionally RIGHT NOW!!!
I love it!
I have spoken those words to so many, over so many years!
One of the most important things for a person to understand….is in order for change to truly happen a person must believe it from within.   And a person must must must love themselves and accept who they are right now!   I am not saying they have to accept being unhealthy, making poor choices, or dont need to make changes.  What I am saying is they MUST see the beautiful child of God they are RIGHT NOW!
Thus….as you HUNGER FOR CHANGE…..
Hunger GOD even more!
LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND SAY:
I ACCEPT MYSELF UNCONDITIONALLY RIGHT NOW!
Have anything to share?  Please feel free to leave comments, thoughts, share!  We are all here to grow and learn together….life is a continual opportunity to grow together, learn from each other, and walk in LOVE!
Have a glorious and beautiful day!
My prayers for all, always!

Many Many Many thoughts on Monday!

Okay so my mind is swirling with a million thoughts I want to share with everyone, anyone on this Monday!  Therefore….this journal…blog…thought entry might just be all over the place….so beware!

1st:
The discovery of scheduling a posting was quite interesting last night…thus the 8 am posting to see if it really went out when I was writing and researching at midnight last night :)….I know I know I know I should have been asleep but at least I actually respected my need for sleep and didn’t get up until 8 am!

2nd:
I was listening to the podcast of Balanced Bites #102….and I loved the advice given to a post partum woman who was trying to loose her pregnancy weight.  How she was being basically too hard on herself.  One of the ladies quoted another ladies posting on her blog/site about how she strives to work with her body.  And what she eats she makes a conscience decision.  Thus eliminating any emotional baggage.  If she eats a piece of cake she says: I am going to eat this cake and know that it may make me feel not so great…or I know it has no value but I will enjoy this with my child.  But if she thinks she is going to turn to it because of an emotional thought or whatever, then she does not eat it.  She doesn’t eat or do anything that is going to create guilt or emotional baggage.

I LOVE THAT!  Mostly because that is how I strive to live….even more so this last 3 years since I have found my wonderful new lifestyle!

Here is a very real in time example….I enjoyed watching a movie yesterday with my wonderful daughter.  She wanted popcorn….I love popcorn.  I have wonderful organic popcorn that I can pop for her fresh and put coconut oil on it…sea salt…and she loves it that way!   BUT it is a grain….I made a conscience decision that I would eat some of it with her….

Did I pay for it?  Oh yes…I within 30-45 minutes felt the gas swell my belly….it hurt soooo bad…..and today my knees are swollen and really really really hurt….but I don’t do it often….was it worth it?  Yes and No!  Worth knowing that my daughter felt joy and fellowship…no cause I hurt…..but I also know I will get it out of my system with patience…..BUT it did actually encourage me to search for other Paleo’s who may have some alternative suggestions for popcorn lovers!  (This is probably the only grain that I really love and miss!)

I found some really fun recipe ideas with cauliflower….you must do a pintrest search!

3rd:
I love homeschooling….I love unschooling….I love Charlotte Mason….I love the phases and ideas and concepts behind the Classical style of education….I LOVE LEARNING with my daughter!

We had such a wonderful day of learning!  It got me to thinking….why do we think everything has to be separating?  Subjects?  Life?  It is so funny because it is probably why I lean more toward Charlotte Mason and Unschooling styles because I don’t see Math as just 1+1=2…..I see:  if you buy this for this amount and that for that amount then you spend xyz….and that leaves you with “abc”  from your budget….where do we want to put the remainder?  In this fund, that savings, this toy…???   Or what about how did this historical event relate to our faith time line, and how about lets write this bible scripture to then edit…critique and work on our Language Arts!

It all is related….it all works together rather than separate!

Which brings me to…

4th:
Why I think it is impossible to separate our FAITH…FOOD…FITNESS….AND EVEN OUR FINANCES…OH AND WHAT ABOUT FUN….oh yeah and FAMILY!!!

It’s impossible….because each affect (yes affect…influence) each other….

I love how if I am truly thinking about what God would want me to do than I am going to take care of my body physically and mentally….and that means not going to any extremes.  I will not be lazy with it and allow it to become unhealthy….but on the flip I will not become so obsessive and legalistic that I strive for vanity and appearance….which then in turn becomes about our finances….in how much are we willing to spend to make sure we are healthy (with balance) and thus turning to real food….not quick fixes….or processed gunk!

5th:
I LOVE WHERE I AM AT IN LIFE!

I have such an interesting life story….mine isn’t necessarily any more special or scary or sad or horrific than the next person. But it is mine.  Some of it is worse than someone else’s and better than another persons.  BUT it is my story….and it is what formed me….it is how I am who I am today….AND I LOVE IT!

I love being able to see God do amazing things in my life and not get frustrated or angry at Him because of the bumps, challenges, learning lessons!

In the last 3 years I have challenged myself in more ways than I have ever in the past…and even had myself be my own lab rat to see how some things may react in my body and with my mind.

From how can IF (intermittent fasting) fit in with my paleo lifestyle… and to what extent….to supplementation….thus leading me to learn even more about quality of supplements….to if I even need supplements…to training a specific way to see if I can achieve a certain goal…to restricting calories and how does it make me feel….to losing and/or gaining 5 -10 lbs to see how it may or may not affect my run, my sleep, my mental health….

Which has all lead me to….

6th:
I love myself!

I love exactly where I am in life!  I love being healthy.  I love being aware and making conscience decisions about my entire health: mind, body and soul!  I love knowing that I am okay with being Paleo…not eating bread, sugar, dairy, gunk….and drinking a glass of wine most nights the week!

I am way ok with having some softness around my hips and legs…I am okay with the wonderful laugh lines between my eyes and around my lips.

I am okay with not worrying about what is suppose to happen next week or even tomorrow.

I am okay with if someone wants to be angry or upset or even frustrated with me.

I was listening to a podcast (again from BalancedBites…hehe…and from Paleo Lifestyle and Fitness)…and I love how they encourage people (especially women) to love themselves!  To quit critiquing those little minuscule flaws that  no one else sees!  To not be afraid of having some body fat….to not be afraid of having curves…to not be afraid of food….real food!  To not put your adrenal glands through the ringer….and to possibly evaluate if you are under eating!

This topic is so dear to me because I see it over and over….throughout the years….

Even at my heaviest with all my health issues I actually really loved myself during that time in my life!  I knew I was a child of God…I knew I probably needed to figure some things out with my health but I knew I was active….and taking care of myself to the best of my ability at that time.  And I have learned so much…..

So no matter what I may be going through in life….whether it is challenging myself physically, mentally, spiritually I know God loves me thus I MUST LOVE MYSELF!

This brings me to my final random thought….

7th:
I have enjoyed the discipline of not allowing myself to get on FB during the week last week other than Sunday because I accomplished soo sooo much more in the morning than I probably ever have….

It is so easy to justify that I am posting on one of my private groups…I am helping spread good ripples…plant seeds….learn from others….be informed…stay in touch…..

But it can easily become one of those habits that you think your must post and share cause otherwise how are they going to know….or….what if I don’t read that one post then I won’t know….or that person will be mad at me if I am not on FB checking to see what they said or sent me…..

Have I missed being on FB?  YES AND NO!   I love the discipline of saying I’m not going there today….but I miss when I have an idea I want to share that I have to keep it to myself….but maybe that is the point?!  Maybe not every thought we have is meant to be broadcast-ed.

SOOO….what is a girl to do who really actually is an introvert at heart….but feels God calling her to share things….to be open…honest…vulnerable….in hopes of helping others who may feel like they are the only one feeling what they are feeling or someone who really needs to hear or know something!?

BALANCE!!!  That is what it is all about!  BALANCE!!!

Blessings….hugs…prayers!!!

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