Plans {God’s or yours}

This week has been nothing I had planned or anticipated.  I had so many ideas and thoughts for what I wanted to do….and even what I wanted to write and share here.

Yet none of it went as I planned.


Because I am NOT in charge….GOD IS!

And the beautiful thing is:  THANK GOD, HE IS IN CHARGE!

When you feel like things aren’t going the way you wanted them to, what do you do?  Do you throw up your hands and say:  I GIVE!  Or do you dig in your heals and say: I’M GOING TO DO THIS NO MATTER WHAT!

Hopefully it’s a little bit of both.  This is why: when we connect to understanding, it is HIS WILL, we should be living in, we can see more quickly the moments we need to say, “Ok Lord I give, I give my will to your will”…..and we can also see when He needs us to dig in, have some grit and not give up!

And that is what the top 10 oils can support you with!  I know that may sound silly since I just spent 2 weeks talking about the top 10 oils relating to self-care and self-love.  But I can’t help but see how they are helpful in almost everything anymore.

  1. Lavender – When we need to relax about things not going our way.
  2. Lemon – When we need to quit toxic thinking and give it to God.
  3. Peppermint- When we need to have that energy to just DO IT!
  4. Melalueca- When we need to quit allowing others to fill us with toxic thoughts.
  5. Frankincence- When we need that extra push to release our will and TRUST His Will Be Done!
  6. Oregano – Not today Satan!
  7. DigestZen- When we feel that fight or flight moment that builds up and we just don’t know what to do!
  8. Breathe- When we need to realize the breath of God is more powerful than our own.
  9. Deep Blue – When the struggle of wrestling leaves you feeling black and blue.
  10. On-Guard – When you just need to protect yourself from all outside invaders to focus on only God’s voice.

As you prepare for the weekend….stop and think…..if my day doesn’t go according to MY PLANS….do I need to reflect and think on WHAT IS HIS PLAN for me!?

Sit with this…..pray about this…..journal about it……connect with me and share below about it!

Many hugs and blessings my dear followers…family…friends…..

~Kelly 🙂

Thankful on Thursday

I thank my amazing Lord for ALL experiences in life.
I thank Him for my friendships….my family….my health….my challenges….my triumphs….my EVERYTHING!

BECAUSE….through each of these I GROW CLOSER TO HIM.

I remember when I struggled to achieve a pregnancy with my darling daughter.  I at the time had been teaching other couples about fertility care and how to achieve or avoid a pregnancy, naturally, with care, with God, with the MIND BODY SOUL approach of our fertility….not as if it were a disease.

There were many couples I helped by teaching them to understand how their bodies worked.  I also remember when one particular person who I respected and loved did become pregnant and I still had not.  I was devastated.  I was heart broken.  I was angry.  I was even judgmental in my head.  I would think “why them, why not me!!”

Then my hubby swooped in and saved me….he helped me understand that it was confirmation I was teaching correctly.  I knew my stuff.  And that we don’t know the why or reason but one day maybe we will.

That woke me up to not covet, to not judge, to not feel sorry for myself.  Especially since it was not in my character to be like that.  I do have flaws but those tend to not be my go to flaws…lol.

Flash forward….this last year has had its challenges with my health.  Heck really if all of us  reflect on our life, each year has some sort of challenge we can reflect on, and it sticks out in our life.  For me I have always been able to look back and truly see the purpose.  I am able to always see at least one if not several purposes….and that’s not even counting all the ones HE hasn’t even revealed yet or may never reveal.

But this last year I started to feel that same feeling that had been long forgotten from many years ago.  That “why them, why not me”…..why does so and so have to be so healthy when I do this and this and this……or why does this person get to stay up at all hours of the night and it not effect their health….why does life seem to come so easy to this person or that person…..and so on.  You get the gist of the ugly slinging that went on in my head.  The whoa is me mentality….the judgmental Congo line….and the lack of gratefulness to those in my life and all I have learned.

And then GOD REMINDED ME…..HE’S not done with me yet.  And LOOK at all I have learned and ALL I have helped because of the place HE has allowed me to be in.  LOOK at how much I am able to refer to amazing powerhouses from the bible like: Joseph, Job, Daniel, Abraham, and even Jonah.

And then I was humbled even more…..instead of feeling hurt or even grumbling and to avoid crossing over into coveting and judging….He reminded me to bless those around me even more! To look at another persons life and see all the good they are doing, and lift them up into prayer because it takes a great deal of strength to do God’s work and His will.  Look at another persons life and find compassion in I don’t know their whole story, I have no idea what burden they are struggling with, or what God has asked of them.  Look at another persons life and be grateful they are in my life to learn from, because we all touch each others life with sparks and ripples; it is then our job to make sure we take that spark or ripple and use it for good!

Thus I close with I am SO THANKFUL to ALL those in my life….whether a moment in the store….a week long encounter of helping someone find their understanding of their health…..whether it is a friendship that has endured years of ups and downs…..or family that we must love because they are who God chose for us to learn from and love.

I AM THANKFUL FOR ALL MY CIRCUMSTANCES….I do not grumble or covet or judge or ask WHY because I KNOW there is amazing growth and gifts in ALL OF IT!!

How do you find your thankfulness in the middle of storms and challenges?!

Have a thankful and blessed day!
Hugs and prayers always,
~Kelly 😉

PS….today’s book has really helped me learn more about my Thyroid and how it can truly effect so much of our health….it is truly a must read for every and all….not only if you have unexplained health issues but also for preventative.  I especially love the chapter summaries at the end of each chapter. It makes it a great easy reference when look for something or just want to jog your memory.


I had every intention to just write out my Spartan goals and plans to share with everyone who would like to join me in this challenge.  Whether you join me physically or would just like to follow my plan to become Spartan ready.  BUT…

Today, as I walked for Life…for Love…for my faith…my family…it allowed me to reflect on many things.  One of the thoughts was definately about how our fitness, our health, is and should be so intwined with our faith.  Heck it had me reflecting on how I would love to do “The Way” walk….talk about a challenge!

As I was reflecting and praying during Mass after communion, I became emotional, and then again as the details were being laid out for the walk I became emotional.  I knew why.  I knew it was because for me each and every January from now on will not just be because I am standing up and giving a voice for all the unborn, the unknown….but because I KNOW intimately one of those unborn.

Four years ago during a very cold January I discovered I was pregnant and couldn’t believe it.  The excitement, then the fear, then all the other emotions that came with it, were short lived because twelve weeks later there was no heart beat.  For me, every January the Walk for Life: Mass, walk, and rosary will be very personal.

Each year I have the opportunity to celebrate the beautiful life that had been growing inside of me.  I  have the opportunity to continue to heal and grow from that loss.  Each year I recieve the opportunity to peel away a different layer of the healing.

The first year the healing was just for the loss of who I would never hold.

The next year it was for the loss of never physically carrying a child in my womb again.

Last year was for the loss and of truly forgiving myself.   You see my heart had not been open to being pregnant.  Even though I had struggled for years to have our daughter.  And then to even try to concieve again.  But….I had become “use” to the fact that we would never be pregnant again.  Thus, when we had found out we were pregnant I was not at a place in my life  I felt I could handle it.  I wasn’t open to the beautiful life growing inside of me.  I felt shame, guilt, and terror for all that I was feeling.  After all, I have always made it loud and clear how pro-life I was and am.  Yet, here I was wanting my will to be imposed and not God’s when I was pregnant.   I struggled with the 12 weeks of trying to figure out what next….when I went into that 12 week appointment and there was no heart beat, I felt numb.  Then tremendous guilt.

Therefore this years tears were for healing and realization of having truly forgiven myself for feeling any responsibility of the miscarriage. Tears were shed in joy and a promise to only live in Gods will no matter the sacrifice.  Because His will is the only way to true Joy and Happiness.  And tears because I had truly forgiven myself and loved myself again.  Tears because I knew because of that pain, because of that shame, I would never ever take any single life for granted ever ever again.
Tears of true freedom.

We all can get set in our ways.  We all can have moments of going through the motions.  We all can be pushy with our will.  BUT….thank GOD for his grace, HIS mercy, HIS love….

Thus ironically how this may not make sense to some reading this….but I realized any challenge, bio-hack, personal goals (Mind, Body, and or Soul)…..MUST be only with God’s will in mind, not my schedule…my agenda….my obsessions….ONLY HIS.

It doesn’t matter if others may think I am weird or out there because HE knows my heart.  Only HE knows what I do, I do with HIM at the head and heart of it all!

I finally not only feel truly free of guilt and shame….I not only have forgiven myself….I not only love myself….I also do not compare…..I do not compare myself to others….I do not compare myself to myself of past…I KNOW I AM AN AMAZING BEAUTIFUL WOMAN WHO IS CONTINUALLY GROWING, CHANGING, LEARNING, EXPERIENCING…I feel tru freedom of the type of detachment that HE asks of us!!!

It is okay to have done something for many years and feel called into a different direction….it is okay to do something for a short period of time and realize it is not the right fit…it is okay to put things on hold to meet other needs…it is okay to want to have one physical goal one year and a different one the next…it is okay to learn something about nutrition one year and shift goals and focuses the next….it is okay to think I am going to teach my daughter one curriculum one year and totally bag it for a different one the next….and it is totally okay to love the skin that I am in because HE made me….and HE is counting on me to love me….so I can love HIM….so I can teach my daughter how to LOVE!!!


I am here to create a fabulous ripple of life and love for her….not by just my words but by my WALK!!!


I hope this helps even one person out there struggling with shame, guilt, confusion, lack of self-love.  It is for you I write and share this.  It is for you that I allow myself to be vulnerable and a book for all to read!

And it is because of HIS WILL that I find the courage to do all HE asks of me.

Blessings and hugs to all of you!
~Kelly 🙂

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