Pursuing dreams and goals, they can be scary.
I have moments when I find myself falling into the temptation of fear. It tries to mask itself with all sorts of tricks but ultimately it is fear.
- I won’t reach my goal.
- I am going to neglect my family.
- I’m not going to meet my daughters needs.
- I’m being selfish.
- I’m going to mess it all up.
But then I STOP…I reach for several oils. I first use Forgive while I tap and pray. I have God remind me He placed these dreams and goals in my heart and head because its HIS mission that He has placed there.
By me reaching these goals, I will be breaking the doubt and bondage of generational junk.
- God is teaching me this is my path for Him and this path WON’T create division between me and my daughter or husband.
- He is showing me I don’t have to fear dreams and goals!
- I don’t have to fear my family will be hurt or angry with me.
- I don’t have to fear I’m not equipped because HE HAS equipped me.
I am blessed to have the two greatest cheerleaders: my daughter and husband. They don’t doubt what God is calling me to do…..and they DON’T ever feel like I put anything before them!
As a family we pitch in to take care of the house, each other, and we each pursue our individual dreams and goals together!
After I have oiled up, tapped, and prayed through all that I feel: Peace…Serenity. I am able to relate to the serenity prayer in a deeper more meaningful way.
What do you need to relinquish…to find your Peace and Serenity?!
Sit with this….oil up….tap….pray….connect :)….
Many blessings dear beloved ones….
I was in a funk the week before last and I wasn’t sure why….
Then it dawned on me….it was coming up on the anniversary of my grandmothers death.
This is what I remember about that day….
I remember my hubby leaving out of town for the week due to work. I remember my daughter and I having a latte date at Barnes and Nobles when I saw I had missed a call from my dad. And I remember giving him a call back when I got home……and starting a load of laundry while I packed up knowing I was going to travel 4-5 hours that day to be with my dad and help him with all he needed to do.
My grandmother died on my military service anniversary date. Why is this important: she was Navy as well…..she and I were kindred spirits in sooo many ways.
Over the last few years I often find myself laughing when I do something because I realize how much like her I am!
I didn’t grow up spending hours and hours talking and baking with her but I always felt amazing love and acceptance from her. I was able to be me. I never felt like I had to prove anything to her. I never got a lecture or a disappointed look about anything. And if I entered her kitchen when she was cooking (which everyone else was always promptly kicked out) I never was chastised for being in the kitchen.
Now if you understand the prongs and complexity of Hashimotos, there is amazing studies, research, and evidence about how complicated Hashimotos is in how it is linked to our emotions and traumatic events.
My grandmothers death was the 3rd traumatic event my body endured in a 16-18 month period. And I am able to understand it better today why her death was the tipping point of my thyroid storm.
My grandmother was my ONE SAFE person.
SHE LOVED ME AND ACCEPTED ME FOR ME!!!
I was always safe with her. I never had to worry about harsh words form her or teasing or anything negative. I truly don’t have a single negative memory with her.
I believe the little girl inside of me that was still needing to figure out how to heal from other traumas that were not revealing themselves yet…..well that little girl within felt panic…felt lost…..felt the rug pulled out from under her.
That little girl’s security blanket was gone…..so her body didn’t feel safe and went into disarray!
Even as I sit here writing this I feel amazing warmth thinking of her and profound loss because I realized everything I am writing is so true. This amazing light-bulb of realization and connecting the dots is profound, illuminating, and freeing!
Have you had an enlightened moment about a trauma in your life? Have you had a moment to add just one more piece to the puzzle of your health?! And have you found freedom in these realizations….revelations!?
Sit with this….pray about this…journal about it…..oil up and tap about it!
Today I’m oiling up with Console, Peace, and Cheer as I tap my thanks for having had a safe person in my life and still loving myself through others ways they can be hurtful through their words!
What are you going to oil up with and tap about!?
Many blessings, hugs, and prayers dear beloved ones!
Jumping straight into my continuation on distributism…
Page 41….Chesterton warned….economic trend of last 2 centuries has been for the concentration of wealth and the destruction of small business…..started in agriculture (***can we say GMO***)…moved to small industry….and has spread….since WWII growing concentration has been most visible in retailing and other distribution sectors….
Page 43….Manning’s “Rerum Novarum”….private ownership must be held sacred and inviolable…the law should favor ownership and its policy should be to induce as many people as possible to become owners…
Page 43 continued….Distribution Program….Distribution League – Chesterton was president…
~restraint of unjust competition
~redistribution of property
~creation of conditions favoring small ownership
~extended ownership of industries that necessitated large scale production.
~laws to protect distributed property
~return to the land
~encouragement of distributist principles by the individual
Page 44…”The outline of Sanity” Chesterton advocates boycotts….
~We should deal only with small shops…..Thomas Jefferson made this same point at the birth of the US….he understood the importance of small shopkeepers against the revival of Fascism…
Page 45…1963, economic theory was to lead to cheaper prices….but it enabled well-capitalized companies to cut prices temporarily until small shops were driven out of business….thus leaving us with one large superstore and was able to then have permanently higher prices….
Page 51…What’s the use of having stuff anyway? by Thomas Starck….we need to quick accumulating stuff….we should have enough to enjoy time with family, friends, books, GOD!
I LEAVE US WITH THIS QUESTION TODAY:
DO WE DESIRE TO HAVE SOO MUCH STUFF AT SUCH A CHEAP PRICE THAT IT SACRIFICES WHAT WE SHOULD REALLY VALUE: FAITH, FAMILY, FREEDOM!
Hugs and blessings always my dear readers….family….friends…
What is true freedom?
I feel we take this simple word for granted in the U.S.
Today I am going to deviate, in a way, from what I have been sharing with anyone who wants to hear/read about my journey with our femininity, our sexuality. Instead, I want to extend to all of you to reach out in prayer for a dear friend of mine.
I’ve shared in previous posts about the child slave trade in other countries. My friend is embarking on a trip today for 10 days to spread light, hope, and love to those who don’t see or experience these amazing gifts.
It breaks my heart so much to know how much we take for granted.
After all, what are my biggest worries, concerns, or thoughts during a normal day for me?
I have the luxury to think about things like receiving and providing nutritious meals for my family. I have the opportunity to contemplate what physical challenge I want to embark on each month. I am able to tweak and experiment with my own personal journey on topics like food, fitness, faith, finances, etc and then share it with all of you.
I have the freedom and the joy to think about how I can grow closer to Christ and not get caught up in this world.
I DON’T have to worry about being used as an object for someone elses morbid, evil intended pleasure.
I DON’T have to worry about my life being threatened each day.
I DON’T have to worry about my sexuality being stripped away in such a way that I don’t even know what is healthy behavior toward my sexuality and my personal/physical body.
I DON’T have to worry about my moral compass being shattered because of the dark veil that shrouds my every day.
My heart breaks for these precious children. The mommy in me wants to wrap my arms around them, love them, tell them it will all be okay. But I can’t and we all know that unfortunately really ugly, bad things DO take place in this very broken world.
BUT there is something we ALL CAN DO TOGETHER! We can join in prayer! The most powerful weapon we have against evil.
As a Catholic, we dedicate the month of May to Mary. But it doesn’t matter if a person is Catholic or not, Mary is mother to ALL OF US! I think we can all respect and understand the the terrible pain and agony she must have experienced as she watched her precious son endure all HE did because of the evil in this world.
For the next 10 days WE CAN join together in prayer for these precious children in other countries. WE CAN pray together that one day these children are freed from this evil….that these children experience a mothers love and warm embrace, and that even though humanity seems to have abandoned them, they are able to one day realize God has not….Christ will carry them…the Holy Spirit is loving them….and Mary will be their perfect mother!
Lets pray they are able to one day KNOW and FEEL the love of our Lord.
The love and embrace of their perfect heavenly mother.
There are many ways we can pray for these children during these 10 days….and beyond.
One way is through a Novena.
Another is learning as much as you can about these crimes and reflect on it, asking God to speak to your heart; to direct you in what action we can or should take.
We can turn to Mary, through the rosary, a scriptural prayer of the life and death of Jesus.
What ever form you choose to pray….please DO pray with me to STOP…TO END THE EVIL OF CHILD SEX TRADE….
Today I stop at this moment to pray for freedom for these precious children:
I believe in God the Father….(the apostles creed)
Our Father, who art in Heaven…(the Lords prayer)
Hail Mary full of grace…
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit…
O my Jesus forgive us our sins….
My prayers and blessings…