That is what I’ve been trying to feel for about 2 to almost 3 months now since we decided we were moving to the Austin area.
Well we went to Georgetown last week and found a home! Bought a home! Going through all the closing process and now finishing up the packing in our Amarillo home.
It all feels like a whirlwind. A very blessed whirlwind, with one hiccup: our Amarillo home hasn’t sold! It has been very frustrating for my hubby. There has been homes in our area that have sold within weeks of being on the market. He has had a hard time not letting go and trusting God’s hand in all of it.
But, yesterday as I was cleaning and getting ready for a showing that was cancelled I thought: what could be the root, the issue, what’s holding this house in limbo? I have thought is was my hubby and all his type A personality and him having to work through trust issues and control issues with God. Of course we all have these same issues just in varying ranges and degrees.
What I have realized through prayer and reflection is I could be the cause of our house having an energy or spirit of being held back. Okay stay with me. I know so many of us are able to rap our brains around the mind body soul spirit of a being. But is there really a spirit or an energy of a thing? I think it is the link to the being, us, that will create or attach energy thus good or bad spirit to an item or a thing or even a place. So let me explain….
I have been and still am beyond excited about this move. BUT being the introvert and highly sensitive person I am, this home has provided 10 plus years of security and SERENITY for me. It has been where all my friends can come and gather and fellowship. I am person who doesn’t like big crowds or gathers; but at my own home I LOVE IT!
Now my body and spirit are going to have to start over, process new people and new places all at the same time. Where as in my home I get to be me. I will have that at my new home but it will take time just like making new friends will take time. I also have to give up my security, my SERENITY, of people who know me and love me for all my amazing quirkiness. I love being quirky, I love being me. I need to remember that I can still be me even somewhere else. Those in Georgetown will get to know me too and I will find my familiarity, my peace, my SERENITY there too!
So to my Amarillo home: If I have held you back in anyway: I am so sorry. If I have clung to you rather than God: I am sorry. And if I have said or done anything to not allow good energy or spirit to flow from you when someone looks at you: I am sorry. I’m going to miss you. I will lean on my SERENITY OIL to support me in this process of saying goodbye and to thank you for holding so much love and laughter for over 10 years!
What do you need to find some calm, some SERENITY with? Do you find yourself having emotional overload, agitation, restlessness, anxiety, or disconnected? How can you find your peace, calm, tranquil and connected spirit in a situation?
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Many hugs and blessings dear followers….family…friends….