I have been unplugging for the month of October. I purposely turned off all my social media. Deleted the apps even and have not checked anything.
It has been refreshing.
I did this with the intent to regroup, restore, and refocus. I knew I was in a transition, a season of change and I wanted to have no distractions so I could really hear what God had to say to me.
Now I have been on YouTube… but I don’t view that as social media because I use it for research, watching some amazing faith content, and personal growth content. For me, I don’t engage in it. I just watch what I want to watch. I don’t even scroll or read people’s comments.
Well, the other night I was catching up on some of my favorite YouTubers. Learning about what is going on with the Church. Catching up on what is going on in the world and what is going on in the news.
I was horrified when I listened and watched about a rape that took place in Philidelphia on a train and how 10 people…..let me repeat this 10 people…..stood by on this train with many stops between the 40 minutes…..as they watched… and some even recorded this EVIL crime take place.
No one did anything for 40 minutes!!! They didn’t yell at the guy. They didn’t try to group together and stop him together. They didn’t even call 911!!!
NOTHING WAS DONE!
I will not lie…..I wept. I couldn’t believe that our society has gone so far as to just stand by and watch evil take place in front of them.
Being a woman with past traumas (more than I care to count)….NOT ONE OF THEM WAS PUBLIC!
The healing I’ve worked through is not owning my traumas, not sitting in victimhood, and truly learning to love the skin I am in. I have had to repair my relationship with my body, my relationship with food, relationships with everything in my life.
BUT….I didn’t have the added trauma and horror of knowing that others were watching the evil take place and THEY DID NOTHING! I didn’t have to try to add that to my healing.
MY HOPE…..is knowing GOD can redeem all!
I remember when I heard Christopher West give some of his testimony not only on a video series but at a live event about how witnessing his roommate at college rape a girl in their dorm room late at night was his turning point of how he was not honoring God with the beauty of his sexuality. How he himself was allowing himself to use and be used.
Maybe just maybe all 10 of these bystanders will wake up and realize they MUST change how they view and participate in this amazing world. As well as how they view themselves.
Because this is my humble and deep belief… when we believe our own selves are unworthy of TRUE LOVE AND RELATIONSHIP with our amazing God……then we don’t even love our own self. And if we can’t love ourselves how can we recognize that someone around us is worthy of that same true love and dignity.
My absolute first prayer in this evil is that this woman who was stripped of her dignity, made to feel worthless and in a crowd, will choose healing on the journey she has ahead of her. I will pray she is able to not let the scars become deeper and close herself off to God….to not close herself off to loving herself…..and not close herself off to relationships that are holy and true.
My next prayers are for the ones who were bystanders to repent of having participated in the evil by doing nothing and may it transform their lives in glorifying God.
And probably the hardest prayer…..but I believe the most powerful one because I have done this with each of the men in my life who violated my dignity…..I will pray that this man who chose to allow such evil to consume his mind, body, soul that he acted upon this evil…..I will pray that he has a conversion so powerful that he actually becomes a warrior for Christ just as Saul converted from his evils to become who we know as St. Paul!
May your day be filled with hope and healing on your whole health journey of loving the skin you are in!
Hugs and prayers always,