Funky Freedom

I was in a funk the week before last and I wasn’t sure why….

Then it dawned on me….it was coming up on the anniversary of my grandmothers death.

This is what I remember about that day….

I remember my hubby leaving out of town for the week due to work.  I remember my daughter and I having a latte date at Barnes and Nobles when I saw I had missed a call from my dad.  And I remember giving him a call back when I got home……and starting a load of laundry while I packed up knowing I was going to travel 4-5 hours that day to be with my dad and help him with all he needed to do.

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My grandmother died on my military service anniversary date.  Why is this important: she was Navy as well…..she and I were kindred spirits in sooo many ways.

Over the last few years I often find myself laughing when I do something because I realize how much like her I am!

I didn’t grow up spending hours and hours talking and baking with her but I always felt amazing love and acceptance from her.  I was able to be me.  I never felt like I had to prove anything to her.  I never got a lecture or a disappointed look about anything.  And if I entered her kitchen when she was cooking (which everyone else was always promptly kicked out) I never was chastised for being in the kitchen.

Now if you understand the prongs and complexity of Hashimotos, there is amazing studies, research, and evidence about how complicated Hashimotos is in how it is linked to our emotions and traumatic events.

My grandmothers death was the 3rd traumatic event my body endured in a 16-18 month period.  And I am able to understand it better today why her death was the tipping point of my thyroid storm.

My grandmother was my ONE SAFE person.

SHE LOVED ME AND ACCEPTED ME FOR ME!!!

I was always safe with her.  I never had to worry about harsh words form her or teasing or anything negative.  I truly don’t have a single negative memory with her.

I believe the little girl inside of me that was still needing to figure out how to heal from other traumas that were not revealing themselves yet…..well that little girl within felt panic…felt lost…..felt the rug pulled out from under her.

That little girl’s security blanket was gone…..so her body didn’t feel safe and went into disarray!

Even as I sit here writing this I feel amazing warmth thinking of her and profound loss because I realized everything I  am writing is so true.  This amazing light-bulb of realization and connecting the dots is profound, illuminating, and freeing!

Have you had an enlightened moment about a trauma in your life?  Have you had a moment to add just one more piece to the puzzle of your health?!  And have you found freedom in these realizations….revelations!?

Sit with this….pray about this…journal about it…..oil up and tap about it!

Today I’m oiling up with Console, Peace, and Cheer as I tap my thanks for having had a safe person in my life and still loving myself through others ways they can be hurtful through their words!

What are you going to oil up with and tap about!?

Many blessings, hugs, and prayers dear beloved ones!

~Kelly 🙂

http://www.mydoterra.com/kellyfrick

Terrific {Triggers}

I was reading an email the other week from Dr. Isabelle Wentz.  She was sharing about her healing journey.  It use to be difficult for her to look at pictures of herself being too thin while she was getting to the root cause of her Hoshimoto’s.

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It was interesting for me because for the longest time the opposite was true for me.  My thyroid storm didn’t just trigger my genes for the Hashimoto’s it became a trigger for my dysmorphia.  Something I had worked really hard to put into its own “remission”.   It was brought back into full force.

It had taken me years to finally not believe the lies the enemy was whispering in my ear about me not being beautiful and worthy, of not being skinny enough, not strong enough, not muscular enough.  He played on my wounds and shame from being sexually victimized a large part of my childhood into my early adult years.

I thought I had broken free from the lies but then when my thyroid storm took place and my body dropped down to 97 pounds I couldn’t be happier,or so I thought.  I had to get really honest with myself when I was first on my true healing journey.  I was able to remember when I was 97 pounds thinking “ooo maybe I can get to 95….maybe 90.”  What the heck?!

So when I went to my friend, a nutrition coach to help me figure out why I couldn’t sleep, why I was so tired, why some days I was sleeping 12-14 hours, why I was putting on weight, and why I felt crazy.  I knew I wasn’t really wanting to solve the problem of all the symptoms.  I just wanted to be 97 pounds again.

I remember early in my healing from Hashimoto’s journey, I would get so frustrated and think, “Well hell if I  am going to have symptoms I would would rather feel like crap at 97 pounds versus feeling like crap at 117 or 125 pounds.”

I actually don’t know what my weight is today and that is a story I will save for next week :)….

I have clarity now when I see my healthy vibrant body.  I see what it has gone through.  And how much it has healed: mind, body, soul, spirit.  My body deserves my love and respect.

I have been reading an amazing book: “You’re Not Crazy And You’re Not Alone: Losing the Victim, Finding Your Sense of Humor, and Learning to Love Yourself Through Hashimoto’s”, by Stacey Robbins.  A quote that really resonates with me today is:  “I care more about my adrenals now than the size of my thighs!”

That is so true.

Do I still get triggers!?  Absolutely.  The enemy doesn’t rest.  He desires for me to turn away from God and how better to try to do that than to take my past traumas, twist it into a mental disconnect, twist it with a thyroid condition, and try to convince me that I am not beautiful just as I am.

But now when I have a trigger I stop, renounce the lie and fill myself with the Holy Spirits strength.  I find the Essential Oil that relates to the emotions I am feeling and I then practice EFT, tapping.  I tap it away!

I give thanks to God for all these amazing gifts He has provide for me, for all of us, to help us learn how to continually battle the enemy.

Now, when I see a woman with legs that I may find myself coveting (whether super thin or beautifully thick and chiseled) I stop and bless her.  Then renounce, oil up, and tap.

On Saturday I’ll share a self care routine of oils and tapping.  How to help support yourself through triggers.  Until then reflect on what are your triggers?

How can you support yourself to not give into the lies?  Sit with it….pray about it….journal about it…..share with me about it!

Many blessings and hugs always dear beloved ones!

Kelly 🙂

http://www.mydoterra.com/kellyfrick

PS…..Are you open to learning more about healing and support through dysmorphia and or Hashimoto’s or just learning how to love yourself better!?  I would absolutely love to hear from you!

Message me through Facebook or email me at kellyfrickconnect@gmail.com.

Only 7 Days left! {Transitions}

Time is ticking.

In one week my family embarks on the next chapter in our life!

We go south to Georgetown, Texas!

Yet my mind is whirling with all that I have done and all I still need to do.  I don’t have enough hours in each day to see friends, pack, follow-up appointments with clients/customers, and sooo much more!

What keeps me from pushing too hard?  From losing focus?  From not living in the moment?

Many things…but the biggest is the gift of having HASHIMOTOS!

Some may find it a daunting autoimmune disease but I do not (most of the time).  I have found it to be a gift especially in times like this.  It reminds me to connect to the situation.

I MUST be mindful of each choice.  I CANNOT try to “muscle” through a day of juggling too many things, and too little sleep, like I once did before Hashimoto’s.  That is where the blessing is.  I don’t have the “luxury” of being abusive to my health.  And I MUST remember each day I AM MIND, BODY, SOUL, SPIRIT……and they all work in harmony for optimal health!

So today my focus is meeting for a follow up appointment with a new oiler.   I will take my daughter to have her braces taken off.  Then I will have my adoration hour with Jesus for the last time at my Amarillo parish, St. Thomas the Apostle.  And nothing else!  In between these three appointments I will stay focused on living and breathing with Cheer, Peace, and Serenity!  How?

I continually bind my will into HIS WILL!

I will spend moments sitting and sipping tea while I read or listen to an audiobook.

I will go for a nice relaxing walk with my hubby at the end of the day.

I will not try to squeeze in extra packing today.

I will not try to make any more oiler coaching appointments.

I will not make promises to others that I know is not possible for this day.

AND…..I WILL NOT DEPRIVE MYSELF OF SLEEP!

I WILL BE LOVING AND KIND TO MYSELF.

I WILL CONNECT TO MY INNER BEAUTY AND TAKE CARE OF ME!

Do you try to push through things so hard to forget to connect to what your mind body soul spirit really need in the moment!?

Sit with this….pray about this….journal about it…..and share/connect with me about it!

Many blessings and hugs my dear followers….friends….family….

~Kelly 🙂

http://www.mydoterra.com/kellyfrick

New Life…

It’s the day after Easter!  Now we experience Jesus in a whole new way!  He is with us for 40 days before he ascends into heaven!

It’s a chance to cleanse…to do away with the old and in with the new!

This had me thinking about how when we think and reflect we can see and understand how our physical and spiritual life truly ARE CONNECTED!

I have spent the last 2-3 weeks painting, cleaning, doing lots of different things to help our house get on the market.  And to transition into a new phase of life.

My system (physical and emotional) has become toxic.  I know this because I can feel it.  It doesn’t matter that I eat 100% organic.  It doesn’t matter that I have been working on my sleep.  It doesn’t matter that I have been doing lots of things to continually heal my thyroid.

Paint is toxic.  Stress (good and bad) are toxic.  Moving things around stirring up junk in the air along with seasonal changes are toxic.

Toxic meaning…..we are expecting our bodies to do a lot of things and it can only process so much at once.  Then it starts to get sluggish, holding on to things, not functioning as best it can/should.

Our liver is our major detoxifier!  It helps our bodies function.  And if there is one thing I have learned about my thyroid is when everything is running well together then it means everything is connected….everything is communicating.  But if not…..well what could be the disconnect?!  And one of my first thoughts is always my liver!?  What is it possibly taking on that could be creating a disconnect between my adrenals and my thyroid…..my pituitary gland to my adrenals……my……you name it……where is the disconnect……

So during this 40 days as Jesus is creating change and opening eyes and detoxing old ways of thinking…..I will detox my body from the overload it has been experiencing that I think could be a liver root issue!  I am going to definitely take advantage of Zendocrine to support my detox!

***More on this amazing oil and products in the next post…..but until then…

What do you need to detox from?  Environmental?  Emotional?  Nutritional?

Sit with this…..pray about it….write about it….share below about it!!

Many blessings and hugs dear followers….friends….family….

~Kelly 🙂

www.mydoterra.com/kellyfrick

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