Many drops of blessings and hugs…
Many drops of blessings and hugs…
I AM BACK!!
I have been pondering A LOT recently about my 2017 dreams and aspirations…..goals…..desires…..BIG OUT THERE “WHAT IF’S”…..
It has been wonderful because it has me reflecting internally as well….
And one of the things it had me pondering about was why I hadn’t gotten back to writing here… ASAP!?
Don’t get me wrong….I LOVE WRITING HERE…..it is the perfect place for me to put out my thoughts…reflect….share…and organize….and then put to action…..and you all are the greatest accountability partners :)…..
So I go back to why have I not written here yet…..I did say I was going to take December and possibly January off……BUT I realized I was avoiding coming here!? So I had to ask myself WHY!?
I’ve been writing every day on Facebook so why not here!? And I realized that it was multi-faceted. I was expecting PERFECTION from myself with the blog……I had great desires to do some organizing and revamping some stuff here on the blog and I was bound and determined to have it ALL done before I started posting again…..I had put pressures on myself that well…. were unnecessary……
Add to it I have been reading some fantabulous books over the holidays and mentoring with several individuals…..and I was beginning to feel like I needed things to be a particular way before I could post again….
Well that is just downright ridiculous…really…..and I realized that…..I was able to remember many great motivators whom I have listened to and read in the past…..and their mantra is to JUST DO IT…..don’t expect things to be PERFECT….or lined up just right….BECAUSE IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN….
And this ended up being in perfect line with my working through my fear wounds…..because fear is a lack of faith…a lack of trust….
So in order to be true to my new years resolution and my new years fast…..I choose to walk in FAITH…..walk in TRUST….and continue to connect my body and spirit in ALL ASPECTS OF MY LIFE….
I choose to WALK WITH HIM…..IN HIS DIVINE WILL…..and be okay with the unknown…to be okay with even though the world says something should be xyz….or success means abc….well GOD knows what’s right for me…..and I’m going to take HIS LEAD!!
What have you been avoiding? Putting off? Fearing?
Sit with that….pray about it…..write about it….then have faith and fear no more!!!
Blessings dear readers….family….friends….
I have decided I am going to take the month of December and possibly January off from blogging. It is an opportunity for me to really focus on my healing work from the retreat but also to reflect on this years goals and next years goals. Where do I want to go with this blog and what are some changes I may want to make or take with the blog and other aspects of my life!
May each of you have a fabulous December full of amazing blessings. Enjoy your family. Embrace all life has for you. And remember this journey is to be shared and cherished!!
What are some things you need to step back from to give yourself better focus and clarity!? Pray about it…..sit with it….write about it….and find peace about it!
Many blessings and hugs dear readers…..family….friends….
Yet….my pushing didn’t seem to help. I tried many different bio-hacks to improve my sleep….to de-stress….different nutritional thoughts….and so forth over the course of several months up through to the holidays.
During Thanksgiving I actually felt like things were getting better….But as I entered into December things were getting worse again. I was starting to experience upper respiratory infections. I was just not seeming to get out from under the weather.
When I got home from a relaxing ski trip in January I once again came down with an upper respiratory infection that I just seemed to not be able to shake. The doc at that time said I needed to de-stress and get lots of sleep because my immune system was run down. I had already been doing some stuff over the previous few months to minimize my work load due to my dynamic daughters (DD) educational needs and demands. So pulling away from work was a no brain-er.
Then I hit a wall….a true “oh my goodness” kind of wall. My hubby was out of town for week during March and I could barely get out of bed. I slept from 9 to 9 during that week and still felt week, exhausted, emotional, etc…..it was horrible.
My yearly physical and exam was due anyways so I decided to have them run a few other tests….as best as the conventional medical world is willing to do…..and everything came back as “NORMAL”…..yet I DID NOT FEEL NORMAL!!!
I have always been passionate about health and nutrition. Over the course of the last 5 years I have become even more interested in how our bodies work, function…how nutrition factors in it….how fitness factors….how our soul factors….how our genetics factor….
Yet this curve ball I was just not getting a grip on! I was loosing me sense of direction…compass…
Thus I prayed for God to direct me to who can help me figure out my biohack: mind body and soul!
One morning I was going about my routine of prayers, working out, checking emails, posting on Facebook about my blog….it was at one of these moments I remembered Laura had been working on her certification to be a nutrition coach. I knew she was my answer. I initially contacted her just wanting to run some thoughts by her. Then I realized no I need to actually consult with her. I knew a lot about health and nutrition and many of my friends and family couldn’t understand why I would seek out a nutrition coach. I knew I was missing something. I also knew I needed help. I knew with my entire being Laura would not think I was crazy. I knew she would be my advocate, my cheerleader.
From our first session she saw some health concerns that needed to be addressed; things the conventional doctors weren’t acknowledging. She directed me to a fabulous chiropractor who practices functional medicine. She recommended some tests to have him run. She even called him in advance to let him know I would be coming in and helped me maneuver my first appointment to make sure I didn’t forget what I needed to visit with him about.
Sure enough the tests revealed I had a compromised immune system, many other systems not functioning properly, a thyroid that was sluggish, adrenals that aren’t talking to my pituitary gland, deficient in lots of vitamins, major organs not doing what they need to do, and a brain gut barrier issue.
This all sounds crazy, overwhelming, and just daunting….but instead I felt nothing but hope. I could feel angry that the doctors I had been seeing before kept missing all this but instead I felt great joy to have answers.
Fast forward two months. I have been able to make some strides with repairing and working on that laundry list of stuff above. I have good days and bad days. It is a process to heal and get better. I feel so many things from this process but the biggest thing is I feel seen. I feel heard. I feel respected. I feel loved.
I will never forget one of the first conversations we had…she said: “You are not crazy, there is something wrong…” and to continue to trust my gut.
I knew she had my back. She saw me, she heard me, she respected me, she loved me enough to help me fight for my health.