I had the privilege and experience a couple nights ago to share with a group of amazing individuals about fasting. The history, types, gifts, and my personal journey relating to fasting.
It was exciting and invigorating…..AND therapeutic. It allowed me the opportunity to reflect later in the quiet of my home over the next day and during my journal time how MUCH FASTING HAS IMPACTED MY LIFE.
I shared with this group how when we are fasting (whether an absolute, normal, partial….liquids only….Daniel….etc) there is ALWAYS going to be a mind, body, soul connection. When we do things for our spiritual health….our physical and mental health will reap benefits…..and when we do things for physical or mental health…..it will impact our spiritual health….the question is will it be helpful to our spirit…to our mind….or will our physical pursuits create more havoc!?
Thus this pondering….this reflective post discussion….allowed me to see all the amazing moments of mind, body, soul connection with my fasting over the course of the last 6-7 years. It has allowed me to realize how much fasting has helped me heal through sooooo many things….but especially my dysmorphia….how I TRULY LOVE MYSELF EXACTLY HOW I AM!
Here is how I see it….
My first fast was a Daniel fast for over 40 days. I entered that fast with a very serious spiritual purpose. In the course of that fast not only did God open and close doors for my husband and for me….but HE revealed some things about my health that were important. I ended up losing over 30 pounds. I maintained that weight for quite a bit of time….it was healthy. So imagine me where I am at today carrying 30 more pounds….it wasn’t healthy for my frame. But what I didn’t know at the time was I was probably already dealing with thyroid issues and didn’t know it. Because I had put on that 30 pounds over the course of a year and it wasn’t easily explained because I hadn’t done anything different in my eating, exercise, life routine.
Over the course of the next 2 years my fasting for others also helped me heal from a miscarriage and from having to choose to have a hysterectomy for serious health reasons….as well as losing my grandmother. Fasting sustained my faith in some of the darkest days of my life.
After my hysterectomy my weight dropped even more….20 more pounds. Family and friends started to associate my weight loss with my fasting. God then asked me to actually fast from fasting. Thus for 1 year I took a break from fasting. It broke my heart that God asked me to stop. But I knew He had purpose and I trusted Him.
What it revealed during that year was that my weight stayed the same. It wasn’t my fasting. And it revealed other things about my health that weren’t explainable. I kept trusting. Then over a course of 2 months I put on over 10 unexplained pounds. That’s when the health storm hit. I started seeing my functional doc and discovered all I did and have about my thyroid.
The amazing beautiful thing was during the first appointment he talked about the amazing health benefits to fasting and if I would be open to fasting. I started to laugh because I knew it was God saying ok it’s time to fast again. My husband was a witness and was able to truly understand the amazing mind body soul connection to fasting.
Hindsight that period of time when I had dropped down below 100 pounds was my thyroid going into overdrive (hyperthyroid)….it was not my fasting….and it was not something sustainable.
It comes back to the beginning statement of how my fasting has truly healed me with my dysmorphia and sooo much more.
Since my body….my physical body…..has changed radically over the course of over 7 years…..I have been able to reflect, pray and fast on the importance of mind body soul health. I have been able to strengthen my love of self. I have been able to heal from past wounds and hurts that created the dysmorphic mind in me at a young age. I have been able to heal and see GOD’S HAND in ALL walks of my life.
I am able to FINALLY see the beautiful body I have been trusted to care for is more than just a body……that I AM NOT DEFINED BY THIS BODY…my SOUL is extremely important….and my mind must continually remember that I CANNOT SEPARATE THE SOUL AND THE BODY……God created us BODY AND SOUL…..BUT the TWO MUST be at peace and harmony with each other….only then will we truly thrive in our TOTAL HEALTH….and only then are we TRULY in COMMUNION with GOD!!
Do you have a disconnect in your mind, body, soul health!? What aspect do you need to really work on to make sure you are in communion with God!? Take a moment today to reflect….pray….write about it!
Many blessings and hugs dear readers…..family….friends….